Truths of my heart

stayin at home has made me feel to comfortable to go out. have been goin out these days and it i am nt very used to the crowd ahha.. Wat a joke .. Stayin home holiday has seriously made me feel so attached to my mother and bro, cause last time i see my frens most of the time, now i see my emails and my bro, and my mum most of time. My bro and my mother are like so worried, when they see me nt eating. Before bro go to work he ask me to make things to eat. but in actually fact i have been eatin more than my i shld last week. Haiz ... hopefull all the small sized clothes in hk will motivate more. I wanna say sorry to amanda for not contacting u , its always u make the move, yah cause jacky feels too comfortable being in my own comfort zone, doing things i wanna n feel like doing. I knoe that every thing is gonna change when sch starts , things would nt stop there just to meet jacintha's pace. Maybe being overprotected by my family makes me rely on them too much ba, but deep down i am still an independent girl who actually no need anyone to make her happy or sad, cause she can be happy, sad and angry by herself.

Amazing huh, my brain is full of spins. Ytd i was tokin to that guy la on the internet , and he was askin why am i single, i wanted to tell him bcos i have high expectations on ppl, bt in the end i did nt cause he's onli a stranger. He asked for my number , i told him " sorry i dun see the need " told him chatting online is more than enough. Oh , cjs just msn me , and for wat ? ask me to vote for his fren songwritiing. This shows how men can be so heartless huh, onli tok to u when they need help. I dun have feelings to him anymore, but it sometimes make me feel so angry that he just disappear. Maybe bcos i disappear from him too. Well everyone has their own life, watever i write , whoever looks at this entry would be able to feel for it cause the person that knows urself best is urself. Sometimes even u urself dun noe urself. Last time i don't even trust myself, not mentioning others. But nw, i am begining to trust myself. Dun ask me to trust a person 100% , it will never happen to me no matter how much i love the person.