Rui en

i am bloggin for the sec time of the day .. i have too much feelings and thinkings now. Just wanna write them down.

I finally went to the lib to get psychology books. And i bought i weekly cause its rui en on the cover. My cool idol .

I was reading the issue, and realise that our thinking are very much similar even background. I always like the 9pm show , bcos of the rui en father part .. Hmm , rui en puts a barrier around herself so that she will nt get hurt by others, and its bcos of her past. Same with me, so far onli a few ppl have the capability to hurt me, cause i protect myself a lot. It may seems that i have a lot of close frens, but onli a few are realli able to get close to my heart,and affect me.

I gt a shock when i read that her parents divorced and from small her family has never been quiet, ( but mine , till 19 still not quiet yet.) Our thinkin is that if wanna quarrel then divorce, why must hurt the kids. she has a barrier towards love too. same as me. I guess aquarians have very independent character, and always protecting them self.

This holiday , i think i have gained a lot, cause i have found what truly makes me comfortable and happy. PR does nt make me happy, cause i hate having common character like any other ppl . but i admit that PR is important, we are living a world of fake ppl. Fake ppl always irritates me cause i dun understand why must be fake, and i feel disgusted and dejected when i am fake to ppl. I guess, when sch starts i can deal with all the PR stuffs in poly more well ba.

Dun need ppl to understand u , no need to explain, if they understand than its good, if nt its ok.
Having a barrier around urself, may nt be a bad thing. Its how we protect ourself and live happily.