cheers!

 

Actually i love u , is it just bcos i like the feeling of love?

I can realli like  the feeling of love and yet not love you at all.

Or i can love you a lot , and yet scared of fallin in love.

I must be sure of one thing ..Do i realli love you? When did i started lovin you ? Is this kind of feeling the real love ?

Was i attracted to you because you are the "extinct " man every women would yearn for , or is it because your hand felt like my first love , and i couldn't help but wanting to be held by you.

I remembered i once asked a fren what was his   biggest achievement. His answered was " experiencing different relationships "   

Different relationships , not just the feeling of " love till death "  or sweet lovely words , but also the feeling of lost , anger , misery , jealous . Because this is called " love"

When you are in love , you will be confused , depress , sad and happy.

Actually all of us need love , but most of time we need courage to fall in love , because around us we have seen and experience countless people being hurt by the word "love".

So even if we realli love the feeling of" being loved" or even if we meet the one that we would be spending the rest of our life with , the question  isn't about love or don't love , but dare to love or not.

 

Realli like the lyrics to this song.. It's meaningful and true huh ?

Hmm , i had a bad dream the other day , i dreamt my mummy was not around , and then my bro kept scolding me. Cause he wants me to learn that he cannot protect me forever. And i cried.. When i woke up i continue to cry.. hehe..

Jeff told my mum that i'm naive ? Damm do u ppl think so too ? Such a spoiler, Well naive or not , i know myself very well. I maybe a wolf in a sheep's clothing .. hu knows?  I have a year to train myself and prove to my mother that i have grown up. So tat i can go aus the last sem of sch. But she says that i am making progress.. Well , i'm not weak , just emotional .. As an Aquarius , tears are my assets. I enjoy crying,

 

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i just love the blog it feature on my toolbar , just one click and i can blog.. so fast and efficient. i just love my new lappy.. I think wat i need is realli an entertainment notebook.  The past few days spend alone at home was relaxing .. Seriously i dun have the feeling that i am gonna start my degree studyin soon. New sch , new ppl , new challenges , new happiness and also new shit .

last wk was daphy's clubbin mood , and this week is mine , its ealli been such a long time since clubbin. But its so hard to find time for everyone to met up. Each of us are leadin our own lives now.

Hmm .. Creampuff made me grow older a few years , experiencing more , seeing more and learning more. Also fall down more. But it gives me happiness and sense of satisfaction, makes me feel that i am makin full use of my life. Even if  it never work out , i have no regrets.

 

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just finish watchin my forensic heroes drama , preparing to go to dreamland , then saw yahoo news, when i read it tears just flow down. More ppl dyin. when they wrote abt a grandfather and his 10 year old grandson body were found , my tears just started to roll. Hmm .. i seem to be learning a lot life lessons as i grow older. Seein more and feelin more makes a person grow. And i feel that it also makes a person know what kind of person or path she wants to take. 

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Parents cryin over missin children

Children burial ground

1st june - childrens day in china .

However it became the mourning day for children who lost their lives in both of the cruel disasters. Today , there was a 8hrs singing conert marathon , so i watch it at home, and also tape it.
Hmm , what is realli sad is when u hear the true stories of ppl and also see them in person standin out askin for help for others , when they alrd have lost their family. Also hearing parents havin to scarifice their own children and save other children. Its so shockin for me to hear . Are these ppl saints ? How can a person be so self-less? the only think i can say that what my mum teach me is true . WE DO NOT LIVE FOR OURSLEVES ONLY.

Come to think of it last time when 11sept happen , i also not much feelins, the onli thing i had in my mind was , osama should be seated on the electric chair for 100 hrs before he die. I ask my mum " Mummy is it bcos nowadays i read newspaper everyday thats why i feel that the world is like endin with so many ppl dyin one go , or the world has been like that all time , but i was just ignorant and too self-centered? My mum laugh , and say that this kind of thing is never ending. It just leaves me with so many questions.

But one thing i am kinda guilty is that , world vision send me another letter for response just after the day i sent out the response. And this time the form had this option where u can reject that child and then chose another one from another country. I would realli hope to sponsor one from either the 2 countries. However, i felt that i can't be so selfish , this child has been waitin so long for my sponorship , and it has to be delayed by the 2 disasters as world vision is short of staff. And everyone's value is the same. So i went ahead with the original child.

What are my feelings abt these kind of things ? Its just mixed feelings . Sad , symapathy , stronger , and also angry with myself . And also it makes me feel more disgusted when i see ppl who are cold - blooded and selfish. Adults dressin nicely donatin onli 1 buck ? When i hear that an 90yr old lady donated all her 26yrs of lives savings. And a begger ,crawlin to the org to donate what he has earn that day from beggin.

I think its realli a good time to reflect back on ourselves ? What have we done ? What excuses are we givin? I myself give excuses too. But this thing realli make me feel no mood for shoppin. Maybe if i save more of my mothers mummy , she will be richer then she can donate more. But whenever i have i will give, i do that most of time , however sometimes i also will look at the situation of the person. Honestly , donatin u no need to think so much , as long u have done ur duty. God knows.

Dear god ,

Heaven must be overcrowded this few months. Pls take good care of those who are with u , and also guide us ( those below) to look after the each other, look after the loved ones of those who have alrd gone up. I promise that i will help u look after them also when i'm up there with u. I will treat u eat ice cream when i'm up there. Or maybe u need coffee more , cause u never sleep.

Guide all those who are lost , heal all those who are wounded. Shelter those who are homeless.

Thank you god . I love u !! A million thanks for changin n guidin me. Pls continue to guide me in my journey before i go up.