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Parents cryin over missin children

Children burial ground

1st june - childrens day in china .

However it became the mourning day for children who lost their lives in both of the cruel disasters. Today , there was a 8hrs singing conert marathon , so i watch it at home, and also tape it.
Hmm , what is realli sad is when u hear the true stories of ppl and also see them in person standin out askin for help for others , when they alrd have lost their family. Also hearing parents havin to scarifice their own children and save other children. Its so shockin for me to hear . Are these ppl saints ? How can a person be so self-less? the only think i can say that what my mum teach me is true . WE DO NOT LIVE FOR OURSLEVES ONLY.

Come to think of it last time when 11sept happen , i also not much feelins, the onli thing i had in my mind was , osama should be seated on the electric chair for 100 hrs before he die. I ask my mum " Mummy is it bcos nowadays i read newspaper everyday thats why i feel that the world is like endin with so many ppl dyin one go , or the world has been like that all time , but i was just ignorant and too self-centered? My mum laugh , and say that this kind of thing is never ending. It just leaves me with so many questions.

But one thing i am kinda guilty is that , world vision send me another letter for response just after the day i sent out the response. And this time the form had this option where u can reject that child and then chose another one from another country. I would realli hope to sponsor one from either the 2 countries. However, i felt that i can't be so selfish , this child has been waitin so long for my sponorship , and it has to be delayed by the 2 disasters as world vision is short of staff. And everyone's value is the same. So i went ahead with the original child.

What are my feelings abt these kind of things ? Its just mixed feelings . Sad , symapathy , stronger , and also angry with myself . And also it makes me feel more disgusted when i see ppl who are cold - blooded and selfish. Adults dressin nicely donatin onli 1 buck ? When i hear that an 90yr old lady donated all her 26yrs of lives savings. And a begger ,crawlin to the org to donate what he has earn that day from beggin.

I think its realli a good time to reflect back on ourselves ? What have we done ? What excuses are we givin? I myself give excuses too. But this thing realli make me feel no mood for shoppin. Maybe if i save more of my mothers mummy , she will be richer then she can donate more. But whenever i have i will give, i do that most of time , however sometimes i also will look at the situation of the person. Honestly , donatin u no need to think so much , as long u have done ur duty. God knows.

Dear god ,

Heaven must be overcrowded this few months. Pls take good care of those who are with u , and also guide us ( those below) to look after the each other, look after the loved ones of those who have alrd gone up. I promise that i will help u look after them also when i'm up there with u. I will treat u eat ice cream when i'm up there. Or maybe u need coffee more , cause u never sleep.

Guide all those who are lost , heal all those who are wounded. Shelter those who are homeless.

Thank you god . I love u !! A million thanks for changin n guidin me. Pls continue to guide me in my journey before i go up.