findin myself

" Understanding yourself is more important than people understanding you"

Saying " I will do XXXX" , why not say" I am doing XXXX"

i was reading the mag on sammi interview, and these two sentence by her impacted me.. when i read the letter she wrote to herself , i cried.. it was so touching.. Actually,last time i always believe tat understanding yourself is more impt than ppl understanding you. But i have changed this year. When hx told me that i have changed, i always told her that i believe that i have changed for the better bcos i have gain more frens. But ytd when i read the sentence understanding urself .... i asked myself " yah , what happen? i dun understand myself as much as i do before..

Hx told me to find myself back this holidays.. she is doing so too.. I told hx that i was proud of myself last time cause of my principles n character, and that i believe in what i do , and i believe in myself. yeah so i am findin myself back. extracted a post from my pre blog to remind myself

When i was in pri 5 , my thinkin was that frens were for survival sake ,maybe bcos the ppl that i met in pri sch were the real hypocrites that i have seen of my entire life . I remember tat i was disliked by some ppl n ppl even spit on my food . But that person became my fren . i was too proud at that time i think . and straight - forward . i always say horrible words to ppl i hated .

But i changed in sec 2 , i became lovely .. hee ... no la .. i can't explain hw i changed cus i forgot too .. frens were no more for survival sake . If u can't get along with the person than dun try , cause the kind of friendship will be very fake

For poly life .. although its onli half way thru i think i have seen a lot le ... The first week of poly i exprienced politcs .. yeah ... at that time i trusted no one but myself .. but i gained true frens at tat time like daph .. without her my poly life would be so borin n lonely . Luckily the politics ended by the sec semester . there were alot of misunderstandins i guess . I misunderstood some ppl from wat i saw as an outsider . But slowly i can see clearly .. but still i did not side anyone , if nt more politics will surface . and then the time came when ppl misunderstood me .. i did not realli care cause i was nt in a wrong . but luckily it ended fast ..