Truths of my heart

Its 3am , and i am getting emo again .. ahaha.. i watched a liitle of the cancer charity show just now , and i asked my mother , the patients say they need money because of the high medical fees, then wat is the govt doin abt it ? Because of the high medical bills , the patients are suffering in terms of money, i try my best to give whenever i can , and also provided i feel that the person realli needs help, i dun help ppl with hands n legs but just sit n beg.

I passed by novena church ytd, the crowd is still there, nt affected by the court case, well i guess nothing is greater than ur belief. Ppl always say i am nt religious , i am just not like some siao christians who worship god as their idol, i seriously depise them and it irritates my ear to hear abt ppl preaching these stuffs.

I belive in god, and actually besides toking to myself, crying to myself, telling myself my deepest tots , i tell him too . I think he hears, cause whenever i have problems or streessed up, something will happen , and then i am back on my feet again. I always cry hardly when tokin to him, also dun noe why, when i pray hard i also will cry. Cry baby is me .

But one thing i think he's dissappointed is that i dun go to church, i am very lazy when goin to chruch, and also sunday class last time. i need to get motivated, well god will have its way of pushin me harder.

For ppl who act read , ( daphy say she's bored too so she has to read this borin blog) my advice, dun read , i will tell u all to come when there is pics for u all to steal ok. I think onli i myself kinds my entry entertaining .. hehe