Truths of my heart

came home real early from sch today and slept throughout.. Great satisfaction. Sleeping and stayin home makes me lose weight. I am gonna indulge in these two things for a month to hit my target of 5kg more. I'm not sure if its my imagination or what , but always feel that when its AV month ( aunty visit) i can sleep like i'm in a coma. Losin blood realli makes me tired? Maybe its the stress recently ba.

I have fallen in love in reading since i worked at mini cooper, the best boring job ever. Reading autobiography is very meaningful , it realli makes me stop and reflect at myself. Just got sammi's bk ytd , which she wrote abt her depression and how she overcame it. Meaningful book with lots of lessons on our common religion. Which i realli think that i need to start goin church almost every sun, its time for me prepare for confirmation , maybe 3years down ?

The things that happen in my life recently has made me feel that, i guess the job that god gave me is to be by my mum's side, just like how he gave my dad, a wife who is so tolerant. The actions of my father recently , just makes me wanna tell him that its all too late, we have to take responsibility of our actions , and not take advantage of god's love for us.

Its indeed sad to see him fearing, fearing that he will have no one to rely on. No one to spoon feed him with everything , giving him a home that he never appreciates. On the other hand, its also very heart breaking to see how sad my mum is. No wife would want a divorce, its realli hard to admit that fact, to admit that u are unable to walk down the journey of life with the love of your life. But those it boils down to just one fact ? Love is never eternal? Telling urself the man in front u will be there no matter sickness or poverty , making a vow to love each other forever , does it results in more hurt when things and ppl change ?

On a personal view, i feel that it takes two hands to clap. How strong is the love , depends on the two persons itself. Making the love strong requires giving up unconditionally your whole heart and life to the person and feel that unconditional love too.