i and ah wan had a walkin trip on thur .. went chinatown for dim sum and enquire on our bkk trip at travel agencies .. It was really a day of walkin.. but i was cranky that day and ah wan wanted to slap me i think .. haha .. Just like how i wanna slap her sometimes too ... Hahaha .. It was my revenge time. Ytd brought mummy to JB for seafood and buy horror dvds.. ( watchin one now ) OK .. I am so engross watching that i paused bloggin for 20 min .. Some pics next up ...

just watched MY EX with mummy.. Its a nice horror movie , the first horror show that i teared a little cause its so sad. I have been crying almost everyday for two weeks because of drama. Previous week i chiong hai pai tian xin , then this week autumn concerto . Everynight i cry like shit alone. Release a lot of stress sia , even though i'm nt so stress. But it has on my tear tap le , addicted to crying since young.. I'm so lazy to upload pics .. Sorry babes , previous week clubbin pics still with me . I will upload by this weekend k k .

I hope i and ah wan strike 4d tml , then its bye bkk and hi taiwan ... yeah !!!

came home real early from sch today and slept throughout.. Great satisfaction. Sleeping and stayin home makes me lose weight. I am gonna indulge in these two things for a month to hit my target of 5kg more. I'm not sure if its my imagination or what , but always feel that when its AV month ( aunty visit) i can sleep like i'm in a coma. Losin blood realli makes me tired? Maybe its the stress recently ba.

I have fallen in love in reading since i worked at mini cooper, the best boring job ever. Reading autobiography is very meaningful , it realli makes me stop and reflect at myself. Just got sammi's bk ytd , which she wrote abt her depression and how she overcame it. Meaningful book with lots of lessons on our common religion. Which i realli think that i need to start goin church almost every sun, its time for me prepare for confirmation , maybe 3years down ?

The things that happen in my life recently has made me feel that, i guess the job that god gave me is to be by my mum's side, just like how he gave my dad, a wife who is so tolerant. The actions of my father recently , just makes me wanna tell him that its all too late, we have to take responsibility of our actions , and not take advantage of god's love for us.

Its indeed sad to see him fearing, fearing that he will have no one to rely on. No one to spoon feed him with everything , giving him a home that he never appreciates. On the other hand, its also very heart breaking to see how sad my mum is. No wife would want a divorce, its realli hard to admit that fact, to admit that u are unable to walk down the journey of life with the love of your life. But those it boils down to just one fact ? Love is never eternal? Telling urself the man in front u will be there no matter sickness or poverty , making a vow to love each other forever , does it results in more hurt when things and ppl change ?

On a personal view, i feel that it takes two hands to clap. How strong is the love , depends on the two persons itself. Making the love strong requires giving up unconditionally your whole heart and life to the person and feel that unconditional love too.

woke up at 5pm today , went for 2.30am movies with my mum , just to aviod my dad. Yes, he received the letter le , and said that he's not gonna do anyting abt it and give him 6 months to change .. Well , its all too late ,,, don know whats gonna happen next , but the court can grant it even if he dun wanna do anything abt it. Hmm .. its so tired to wander at orchard the whole day lor. But i like to see the quiet roads , its like world end , gt no one. ahaha..

Hmm .. i have decided to go on corn flakes and shake diet le .. Have not been disciplined enough since i'm back from hk. Only lost a kg since i'm back , although i amazingly did not gain any weight although i eat so much more.. its realli the walking in HK that helped. I am more determined now , after seeing my slow progress and amanda's grapefruit diet ( grapefruit diet is the most horrible diet on earth) i rather bath in chilli . Mummy bought two super super big box of corn flakes to motivate me. I must lose 2kg by 4th feb !!! Then it would be another 3kg before i hit my targeted weight for herbalife. Kambatei !!!!

I'm super super free today .. home alone with my tv and my flu. So.. its time deep entry..

Met up with gwee , my long time primary sch fren ...
We talked about lots of stuffs over nice and cheap ramen @ orchard central ..
Being both single and kinda independent , we talked about being "single " 4ever .. haha
Well , we both come to a conclusion that we can survive the fact ... Anyway u will never know how is ur life until the last day of ur life. Who knows , we two might be happily married, while our frens happily divorced .. haha( i'm nt cursing u guys ah .. )

But, we also commented that external pressure is the most sickening thing. And i'm more lucky that her, cause my mum dun ask me to faster marry.. Come on , i'm only 22 to be ..

I guess, ppl like us can't understand why ppl start worrying about "our" love life, when we ourself feel that love life is not a defination of happiness. Definately , every normal women wants to be loved by a men whom they love too. But if there is no such person in the mean time , i cant be raising eyebrows thinking that my life is miserable , there are so many ppl that i received love from and i am fortune to have them.

I guess what i experience and see in my life has raised the standards that i look for in a guy. Of course not in terms of physical appearance but in the "internal beauty". Maybe only a guy that has met my standards of internal beauty can give me the sense of security , where i can love him dearly.

Going on to 22, and going into the working world too , it takes me in deeper thought these days.. About how am i gonna take this first step ... And receiving chirstmas greetings from my sponsered child has motivated me to earn money in order to help more orphans and childeren whom have no one to love them...

Daphy sent an "unexpected" sms today , she asked me to bring her to church .. Its realli wow, and that women as usual , sms me then when ppl reply back , she goes hibernating again. She has seriously been on hibernating mode for such a long time!

these two days have been immersing myself in dramas... Watchin laid back dramas is such an enjoyment, making me feel like just going to the village to stay , find my village boy and live happily ever after. Haha.. didn't expect these kind of fairy tale life also suits me huh.. Hmm , at least i manage to enjoy a bit before sch start.. My silly mother has transformed into a sammi fanatic, keep telling me sammi is so cute , and she realli like sammi . Guess she still suffering from after concert hyper-ness. I also over that stage le lor.. Haiz.. everyday my job is to entertain my mum, cause my bro is not back yet , so i can't leave her alone too much.. Luckily i know how to act cute make her laugh. hehe.. Thinkin back, last time i was realli selfish to say that she's a burden. Nothin can be compared to wat she did for me n my bro.

So scary its the last sem. Ah yo , i just hope god will let my mother strike 200,000 so that i can open cafe la. I realli dun noe how am i gonna survive the working world. Its too "injustice" for xiaojiejie la. Ok, dun think so much le... Back to see my village love story.