The feelin of being angry at someone is tiring , but the feelin of someone being angry at u is worse . A person with such high pride in me hates being ignored . Hates when I am talkin to a wall n hates not talkin things out.

I just hope everything will end on the start of next yr .

Hate the feelin of uncertainties ... sometimes I wonder , why do
I care when ppl dun give a damm...

Haiz ... sometimes i feel so tiring communicating with ppl and yet that is my job. With my fussy-ness and also strong pride, sometimes i feel so tired.. And sometimes after there is more tiring stuffs for me to deal with. Self - restrained is something that i learnt this christmas in church. But which human can realli fufill that, each of us are feel that we r the one that is more ke lian.

Just being emo today... cause i m tired .. realli tired.. tired of the fact that why cant ppl be more understanding n consider my feelings.. Yet this is a thought of self centered-ness

Still feelin fan n worried .... Wakin up not feelin excited on the day ahead ... But just wantin the day to be smooth n problems solved ... When will l feel that life is a interesting mix of joy n sorrow ?

Waitin for doc at nuh ... Hungry cause it's 11, lunch time .... Bored ...








Pics from Evan farewell.... Still waiting for doc ..... gt to
Endure pain again later .... Haiz ....

It has been an "rollercoaster" week for me again. But more "rollercoaster " rides to come. Sometimes i realli feel that i am so suay ... Although we know that there are countless ppl around the world or around us that are worse, its still hard to avoid indulging in self pity at times.

However, when i self pity , i feel that i have greatly sin . Seeing the verdict now , and also looking back at our lives, i realli feel that god has every thing planned for us. It depends on us to appreciate his planning. Sometimes i realli miss the old me, but on the other hand the old me was strong but unhappy. Now at least i learn to be appreciative of the ppl ard me, even though they did not realli do things that are super super touchin or so , but just a little concern alrd i am appreciative of that. Hahaha .. Thats why the number of darlins i have has increased yr by yr ! Until chen huixin has alrd give up ! hahaha..

To all my darlins, thanks for all the concerns .. Although u all might not feel that u all do a lot or realli help or consoled me , but i realli appreciate every word of concern.


Days ahead will be hard, even harder than before. But i believe everything will come to an end soon.

PS : Ah da mei, u see me every day, so pls bear with my off n on emo-ing.. Thank u ah da !

jb trip pics ... It's was a fun day , with me being a little cranky ... haha... But my two darlins still tolerated me ... Hehehe ... it's time they show me some love ... My silly mum joined us later ... Everyone says my mum is cute ... Cute = silly ....

Oh my goodness .. i am bloggin the office and i tot its my CRMS case system . I started with " JA" haha my initials. I am feelin super hungry now .. half n hr more to off work. I cant wait to eat.. seriously i wonder how am i gonna start back goin on a diet. So pissed that i the concert video is actualli not uploaded la. I happily tot it was. It was a satisfied video taken.. Nvm .. i have edited the taiwan pics, taken away the " buang ones" but then facebk still takes a long time to upload. So sianz...

Haiz.. i cant wait for fri ! Timbre ! Its been realli a long time since we had quek quek pizza. N sunday i can see chen hui xin . nv see her for half a mth le. yeah! i miss ban mian times... I can wait for the year to end... haha.. time pls fly.

Did not realli take a lot of pics at sammi concert.. i took enough at hk one le .. haha .. Went concert with Jun Jun n Jacq .. It was fun .. At least the three of us were quite enthu, but i n jacq had to tolerate the non-sammi fan keep niam-ing.. But the three of us nv take photo la.. and i took a super shaky shot of them haha .. but i am nt selfish so i shall upload it here.. hahah ..

I miss all my darlins ...... I also miss my hk airport fried rice n Taiwan ru rou fan , oyster egg n red tea ! haiz .... I can't wait for march now ! I will be back for my fav lemon tea ! Macau egg tarts wait for me !!!

it's 4 more wks to Taiwan ! Life is such a routine that I am just leadin it everyday... With no idea how would the future be ... Seriously felt that durin sch days all the thoughts that with a cert, I can see my future, we just so innocent . Act no one can see their future ... Haha.. It's how u crave ur our future n not just imaginin it. Bein in the same company as ah da , both of us are pillars of each other in work... Which is comforting ... Thoughts of disappearing in our own world also happen the same time. Haha.. And after so much crap ... My main plans now is still save n for the travelling plans...

31 days more !!! Yahoo !!! Two things I will never be sick of ... Sammi concert n hk !!!

Whenever mummy tells me abt the prob with all the stuffs she has , I always feel so helpless. Esp with money matters ... the lawyer figures r kinda scary .. And yes , we have to be in debt again till every thing is settled. For the years is clearing debts after debts... When will it finally come to an end , when she finally cleared almost all , Now a debt incurred just because we wanna a more peaceful life.. I can feel the tiredness she has, yet nothing helpful I can do .


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At ur lowest n most down period.. Who are those who will realli feel for u ? as u r feelin down, they will be down too....


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Bored ... Shall upload some Lameo pics in my phone ...





I love ban mian catch up time with Hx !!


Free chatterbox chick rice we had for tea time .... Hmmm ... We felt it was overly rated!


our childish yet lovely gift for 老女人！

That's all for the lameo pics .. My ear hurts , feelin cranky.. I think I too long never have injection le , until I jerk a little while the needles went in n the doc said sorry.... always feel moody whenever I go hospital and after that ...

I can't wait for sammi concert, taiwan , Macau n hk !!!

Nua -ing at my grandma house Now.. woke up at 3pm today ... And the first thing I heard from my mum is that he told some relatives n family friends that we r sellin the house... He is just so confident that with all his crap he can win the case . Seriously just can't wait to get him out of the hse ... Haiz ... Luckily I have friends around me as support ... thanks darlins. Every time I am down , I will look at the pics in my phone to see the ppl i have ard me . Thanks darlins .

Doin my hair now ... So bored ... iPhone is always like my bf durin my my boredom times ... Haha ... Ytd had a relaxin time @ jb ... But again ... Spend till I was left with 1 dollars left.. Last week
Was quite a mentally tirin week, seein the true Colour of my dad realli make me so disappointed that it's all hate now ... There is no single reason that we should pity him. seein his actions makin my mum so disappointed also just make me worried..


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So excited with the upcoming stuffs ... Yet the thought of scrimping n Saving all the way is horrible and waitin for the day to come . Even today window shopping alone is horrible . Can see cannot buy . haiz .... The rate of all the travel plans I have I think I will have no savings ... But anyway .. It's my first job ! I
shall save part of the big B... Excited !!!


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Location:Paterson Rd,Singapore,Singapore

Celebrated mummy's bdae at keppel bay today .. Bro treated us to a nice but super ex dinner ... Realli feels good to hang out n have dinner as a family ... It just shows how much we love each other.. hope everything will settle asap .. Then we can beautify our hall .. N I rest on my L shape sofa n watch movie with my home theatre ...


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Freakin sick n tired of all the "shit" . Why shld I be always so bothered , why am I always the one to carry all the stupid emotions that u all give me ? I seriously feel that for the 22 yrs of my life I have been too soft, every thing I protect, I handle , I listen , I accompany . The baggage is getting heavier n heavier ... I am freakin sick n tired ... Sick n tired yet I have to just continue walkin .. There is no time for me to even escape anymore.

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52 more mins to off work !! N I can't wait for it . I can't wait to see my baby. My baby loves me
The most , understands me the most n can tolerate me the most ..

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Came home straight from work cause I am feelin emo. I think too many factors that me emo until I
also dun Noe why I emo. Watched drama n cry. but feelin I never cry enough. And freaking hell when I am emo , he call n ask me for money. I seriously dun understand whr his money goes . Why do ppl always only see their own shadow?

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Cranky day today cause I am sick... feel like a baby, even see doc alone also feel so bored.. Haha.. But I feel the love from baby .. So sweet.. Had a great heart to heart talk with her ytd.. Realli miss the times we spend together, havin gone thru so much together I am nt afraid of that 3rd party!! Haha ... She can jolly well wait. I and babyxin has reach the stage of unconditional friendship n love le ok !!!


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Its been a long time since i have been so emo ... Emo till the extend that i decided to vent it off the treadmill. When i came home n saw the skirts that he bought for me i seriously felt so confused. I have no idea what is his motive. The thought that came to my mind was that it is all too late. I seriously dun understand his defination of loving his children, sometimes love sometimes dun love ? After the court stuffs has started , the times of coming back home n receiving shit from him has reduced but that does not mean a change in him. I can predict the real " shit" will come by end of the month after there is a verdict. Honestly, i am kinda worried of the emotional tunnel that we all have to go through from there on. It is definately not going to be easy for all of us. And by that time i would have to deal with my emotions and going to work. All these just push me to be more stronger, standing on my own feet dealing with everything. Hmm .. seriously have the urge to travel alone , wonder when can i do that !!

Haiz.. Work has changed me without me realizing till i met baby. I guess is nt the work but the routine lifestyle. Every day is just fufilin that day.. Honestly I am bored le .. Nt much sparks .. It's realli a routine!! Even clubbing don realli add much sparks in fact I prefer times whr I spend with my darlins n baby chillin out. Baby said that she miss my life theories. I guess I will onli start thinking of my life after I finish probation or when I am feelin no longer sleepy haha.

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Independence day 1

Today is independence day for me , da and baby . Sally go back le , so poor baby feels kinda lost , she have to be independent ironin her clothes n cookin her own Maggie le . Haha ... Independence will just make u stronger baby. I have faith in u , it's training for ur housewife job. Haha. As for me n da , shifu go holiday le .. Honestly did not expect that there will be such a diff haha . but I n da did nt open our mouth the whole mornin ... We were singing the lonely song in our hearts . Haha . Luckily there is Reuters if nt we will rot . I am here now la ing kopi alone at old town waitin for my mum... Wanted to bus home alone , but just have the urge to slack alone . Finally some peaceful short me time!!!


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We are the four crappiest girls !!!



I wanted to put the caption of shifu naggin at me again .. But i realise , she has a act cute expression AGAIN.. Spoiler sia!!!
We get touchy at times !!! Da loves those moments
I guess my hands were there cause i was just too afraid of her abusive nature.....

Mr Prata is so flexible .. Okie ..
I can't stop laughin at Amanda's " whats happening " expression


Wow .. Pretty babes ...
I dun realli like this pic cause my boobs look enlarged !!!

Pillow fight !!! But its a wrong expression on me .. Haiz.. Round 2 next time !!!

Stupid lei the red light .. I am nt Zhong Wu Yen !!

Ah yo .. Shifu always like to Act Act Only .. ( Act Shy n Act Cute )



Shu wen is always feelin tired @ work !!!


My abusive shifu .. Her weapon is my cushion that she's holding.. And her mighty hands !! Poor Me !!
Wow !!! Engrossed!!!

Everyone loves Mr Prata !!!
The 3 kids !!!

I love u da !!!
Hazel n her shifu ... Her shifu is not abusive at all !!!

Okie .. finally i have done my duty of uploadin the pics le .. When shuwen has uploaded her pics n videos i shall transfer them here.. Her pics are more funny!!! Its gonna be 12am n i am feeling tired again.. I guess my body clock is fixed nowadays.. Weekends passed so fast !! Monday is back to blues again.. Haha.. Shifu is away for 3wks so my skin will have some rest .. But i and da have to kick of the habit of calling "Jun Jun 电话 ! "

Time for me to mask n slp !!!

Last weekend had great fun at malacca with the lovin couple n DaphY. Ytd ktv session with the bunch of cc shifu's was fun . Pics will be uploaded
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