Truths of my heart

Yesterday was hospital day , spend half the day in the hospital.. Not that i'm sick but i went to visit the sick .. And also pei my mummy go X ray , luckily nothing is wrong with her lungs , the doc say her lungs is very clear. But it might be because some running nose fluid went near the voicebox so make her cough.

Went to see my uncle, and actualli now hospital is suppose to be restricted to 2 visitors and must take pass, but when we say the bed number , the person say no need pass .. Why? Cause my uncle is critical so anybody can come. And honestly i always feel that some part of his illness is he bring it to himself, but when i saw him , i realli wanted to just plug out the tube for him and let him die . Have u seen a person who is going to die, and is totally disoriented ? It means he dun even know whr is he , what is he doin , all he do is just stare into space, waiting for god to take him.. When u see a person like that , the only thing that comes to ur mind is , " just let him die la , why must suffer? Afterthat i went to see my babysitter , in Ward 12 .. If u are goin to see anyone in NUH ward 12 .. Its the depression ward .. Must press bell then can go in .

So many students study until siao .. So poor thing, even when they are hospitalised they still hold a book lei ! My babysitter is depressed over money . Not very serious la, its all in the mind. Sometimes i realli feel that i experienced a lot of this kind of stuffs , things that ppl wun want to experience , but all these experiences are constant reminders in my life.