Truths of my heart

i dun noe why , when it comes to holiday , suddenly so many things surfaced up. There are so many questions marks in my head now , and what i realli have the urge to do is to open a board meeting. With the all 4 parties including me. I understand that in this world , a lot of things are not like what we see or what we hear, a lot of people cover up for themselves to protect themselves or so that they are nt outcasted, its fully understandable , i even learnt that in sch books.

However , in my own stand or principles , if u claim that u are a true fren, whats the need for all these surface words. Everyone has shortcomings, i will not dun fren u just because u display ur shortcomings openly. In fact i will admire u more. True frens should be open. There are many times that i want to clarify things openly but people just seem to avoid such things. And after some time in my mind is " forget it then" . I seriously admit that i'm not working hard to savage the changes between friendships . Why is there a need for surface words in true frens , why say words that are against ur hearts to a person that u claim meant a lot to u ? If there is a need for surface words , then dun tell the person that he /she is important to u la. By telling people that , it raises a person expectations. When i quarrel with people , my words are most of the time harsh , but thats what i truly feel, if u are angry with a person, but are nt affected but what she explain or say , then its just that u dun give a damm.

Well, maybe this whole thing is my problem too , sometimes i will think why i can't attain the kind of friendship that i n hx have , on others ? True fren ? I guess i only have one then. I would rather have just one , than a pool. Dun need so many people to bring colours to my life. A painting using minimal colour can be as good.