Wanting to blog the past few days, but have been very lazy.. So things are kinda backdated in this post ..

Wed - Ladies Night with  daph , da and zw .. Its a total dramatic night. With two out of us , keep falling on the floor. One hug me and cried like shit.. And i wanted to cry at that time cause i think i realli make her so scared and worried for herself and also me. I'm so sorry. It's always full of drama , lost and found, drunk and fall, and me ? Vomit and Vomit ..  I fucking puke 3 times the night , at home. I finally understand why ppl get drunk in presence of frens , cause its so lonely to vomit alone at night , where u have to keep the volume down fearing it will wake family members up. So fucking xin ku. Ok .. i know i deserve it for drinking so much. But ... at least i dun fall ok ! I know my weight !

Btw ! I want the pics daphy .. Still dare to scold me , i tot u could stand in my shoes !

Thurs - Interview day with annice darling ... Its been a long time since we hang around. Had a great time walking all the way to bugis and also starbucks , oh and Halal Char Kway Teow!

Fri - Went to watch movie with my primary school fren. Also wanna take a pic with her, but she's shy la. Yeah, we talked about how much we have aged! And my primary school junior given birth le ! 19 yrs old lei ! Oh my ... i'm a 18 year old in 21 year old body!

 

Some back- dated pics ...

 

 

Oh my , is the couple behind bua-ing each other ?

 

Today met up with hx and gave her the present i did. Its realli the most romantic thing i have ever done lei. And its gonna be the first and the last, cause i think do this kind of thing must have a very sincere heart , and must have lots of memories , and the person must mean a lot lor.. ( I think i make it sound like SEX ! haha .. Its a handmade thingy.. ) So i guess onli she ba , even if gt bf next time i also wun do cause i dun my bf to see how my art sucks.

We had a wonderful time window shopping , she saying that i'm fat and oily ( as usual ) i told that to her too .. she always use me to console herself la .. so poor thing! haha.. Realli miss the past innocent days , we realised that we have aged alot.. Seriously , pictures don't lie ..

I'm gonna bug u more often ok ! and dun take photo of my sms to u and blog it ! It's privacy lei!

Hmm .. tml is clubbin night again ! Dun pity me if my liver fails .. i deserve it!

Very enjoyable night .. After months of SIM exam madness .. I club the whole night !

So great to meet daph there , after double O close , powerhse , then dragonfly .. Then mac breakfast . I think the most funniest part was the cab ride, the taxi driver was listening to our conversation and suddenly he burst out laughing. Funniest taxi driver.. Too many pics le , shall upload in facebook !

Dun wanna be bai quan !

i dun noe why , when it comes to holiday , suddenly so many things surfaced up. There are so many questions marks in my head now , and what i realli have the urge to do is to open a board meeting. With the all 4 parties including me. I understand that in this world , a lot of things are not like what we see or what we hear, a lot of people cover up for themselves to protect themselves or so that they are nt outcasted, its fully understandable , i even learnt that in sch books.

However , in my own stand or principles , if u claim that u are a true fren, whats the need for all these surface words. Everyone has shortcomings, i will not dun fren u just because u display ur shortcomings openly. In fact i will admire u more. True frens should be open. There are many times that i want to clarify things openly but people just seem to avoid such things. And after some time in my mind is " forget it then" . I seriously admit that i'm not working hard to savage the changes between friendships . Why is there a need for surface words in true frens , why say words that are against ur hearts to a person that u claim meant a lot to u ? If there is a need for surface words , then dun tell the person that he /she is important to u la. By telling people that , it raises a person expectations. When i quarrel with people , my words are most of the time harsh , but thats what i truly feel, if u are angry with a person, but are nt affected but what she explain or say , then its just that u dun give a damm.

Well, maybe this whole thing is my problem too , sometimes i will think why i can't attain the kind of friendship that i n hx have , on others ? True fren ? I guess i only have one then. I would rather have just one , than a pool. Dun need so many people to bring colours to my life. A painting using minimal colour can be as good.

Yesterday was hospital day , spend half the day in the hospital.. Not that i'm sick but i went to visit the sick .. And also pei my mummy go X ray , luckily nothing is wrong with her lungs , the doc say her lungs is very clear. But it might be because some running nose fluid went near the voicebox so make her cough.

Went to see my uncle, and actualli now hospital is suppose to be restricted to 2 visitors and must take pass, but when we say the bed number , the person say no need pass .. Why? Cause my uncle is critical so anybody can come. And honestly i always feel that some part of his illness is he bring it to himself, but when i saw him , i realli wanted to just plug out the tube for him and let him die . Have u seen a person who is going to die, and is totally disoriented ? It means he dun even know whr is he , what is he doin , all he do is just stare into space, waiting for god to take him.. When u see a person like that , the only thing that comes to ur mind is , " just let him die la , why must suffer? Afterthat i went to see my babysitter , in Ward 12 .. If u are goin to see anyone in NUH ward 12 .. Its the depression ward .. Must press bell then can go in .

So many students study until siao .. So poor thing, even when they are hospitalised they still hold a book lei ! My babysitter is depressed over money . Not very serious la, its all in the mind. Sometimes i realli feel that i experienced a lot of this kind of stuffs , things that ppl wun want to experience , but all these experiences are constant reminders in my life.

Was reading the newspaper on sunday , and lately have been following up with the news.. The very interesting top about the AWARE sga , which i feel that this association should seriously close down. With all the drama that they create , why would a women have confidence that they can help them. I rather depend on myself. The issue on sex edcation programmes they give schools realli make me wonder , what kind of environment will my child grow up next time, how can such programmes shld be taught in schools . Yeah , so since i was free and wanted to voice out my tots , i wrote to the editor. Dun realli care whether she will publish my comment , but more of maybe letting her be expose to my thoughts , hopefulli it could help her more on writting articles that address this issue . This is wat i wrote :

I refer to your special report on sex education on Sunday Times dated 10 May. I'm a 21 year old student currently studying in SIM university. My personal experience on the sex education programmes that i was taught in primary and secondary were very educational. However , i feel that sex education about pre martial sex should be taught when students are in their lower secondary , or even primary 6. It might seem as too early , but we can't deny the fact that our society are becoming more open, and teenagers are having sex at a younger age. Although sex education programmes may be teaching what students have already known , such programmes allow students to ask questions about what they have already heard or learnt from friends. Many parents do not teach their children about sex education as it has already been taught in schools, however parents are the most suitable person to teach their child on sexual issues. It should not be viewed as embarrassing or awkward, parents should be responsible for the upbringing of their child. During my growing years , where i was more curious and had lots of questions , i would have small talks with my mum. She would teach me what is right and what is wrong , and how should i protect myself as a female. The growing numbers of pre-martial sex,and abortion is one source of evidence showing that sex education in schools is not enough. Parents play a crucial role too. Furthermore , when parents teaches their child on such issues on grounds as an adult or religious faith there is a high possibility that children will think twice before taking a wrong step. Therefore, the responsibility of sex education should not be only from schools, but parents should play the more important role.

Yeah .. Ytd me and annice went dragonfly ! My goodness , and we were so amazed by another singer we saw , Sky .. Her Shanghai tan was so amazing man.. And she's realli an entertainer. Dragonfly realli has talented singers like emilee kang , sky and the china girl... But i guess i and annice's excitment ytd were nt enjoying their voice , instead it was zhang yaodong and his handsome fren steve. We were looking until so obvious lor.. Seriously last time i felt that zhang yaodong is so ugly. But he realli become better looking, and he realli very poor thing and kena bullied by the china ladies. Treat him like dummy. Well in the end , i gt a photo with him ... And i even help annice get a photo with the steve. It was a daring act ok , he is so handsome , and i'm like " Can my fren take a photo with u ?" . Wow, i think my dream guy is a mixture of steve and zhang yaodong. Oh my if i have such a bf , i will be the most faithful girlfriend in the world. ( Ok, single girls love to dream ! )

Annice darling , i'm waiting for my photos ! Oh ya , we meet a crazy ang moh , who demanded kisses on the cheeks when we said goodbye. Well wat i answered him ? " In singapore its different ! " Haha..