Truths of my heart

Late night 1 am .. woke up from an 1 n half hr power nap. Just cant believe that suddenly i just cant go back to sleep. Maybe there is a sense of urgency in me that i need to move on with my life step le. To others , changing jobs would actually mean no kick , however to me , someone who is actually so fortunate to be protected in my yrs of life , well despite family hiccups. Its kinda a huge step, being in my current job is realli a very comfortable env , esp working with amanda , and also collegueas that i m comfortable with. Of course, trust level in work is not with everyone however they are nice ppl overall. Its realli not easy for me to push myself to move out of my comfort zone. Where i will all alone , defending myself and consoloing my ownself . actually come to think of it , even in my CIMB starting days , my collegueas do actually defend us from all the "bad ppl" . Kinda luckily for me , and also i do have my fierce rubbish bin, who tries to defend me to a certain extent, yup definately i m too spoilt.

Well, i have already starting some resumes out le , lets see what has god planned for me ba . If marketing is not fated with me , then maybe i will have plan 2 which is CS again. Dun realli noe if marketing is in my capibilities, but i will try. I realli feel that if u have no confidence , its kinda hard to find wats your capibilities. Hmm .. during this period, i realli just wanna concentrate on myself, exploring my thoughts , forcing myself to actualli be more mature and also try to handle my own EQ more.