Today is another fustration day .. Internal fustration. Sometimes I just feel so disgusted with myself . Why can't I have facial expressions whr I truly mean them ? Pls dun step on that particular toe . Cause when u step on it .. It realli means bye ..


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i think its ages since i blogged .. packed my korea bag halfway n i just feel so pek chek that firstly damm i cant fit into my jeans that i wore to Hk IN march .. haiz so depressed .. So many things changed since i last travelled. My skin , my fats , my character ( i guess so) , my travel partner .. haiz... dun noe why i just feel so pek chek and also looking at my CC bills i even more pek chek .. haiz ..i hope i spend within budget in korea if nt i also dun noe how .. No sugar daddy , no bf , no rich family.. haha ..

I m seriously just ranting away.. But on the other hand i cant wait to spend my holiday with soulmate.. Hehehe..

Nt fantastic Korean BBQ with ah wan !!




Tea jelly at TWG is gd !!



Atas tai tai tea time with Nu ren and Squid ..




Jb with ah wan on sat !



Jb ba ku teh with mummy on sun !!

That was all my outings for the previous wk . This wk kinda nua .. Cause I m kinda "fan" abt some stuffs .. Trying to be in my own world a while to think thru ... Today .. Feel sick with fever ..

It's time to rest n think thru ba . Went for skin doc ytd .. First time I see ppl do laser treatment .. Must wrap the face with plastic transparent foil . some women realli so darin jus for the face .. N when they r alrd so old lo...

Cant wait for Korea !!

Yeah ... It's wkends !!! This wk I was busy woryin abt my hair ... Haiz .. I think these few mths realli is suay bong ... everywhr gt prob ... Lookin worse ... ytd went for v nice jap food with Simone n squid ... Went to try cold stone !!! Super nice de ice cream !! Haha .. I think in ofc I click more with the lao ren .. Haha ... Today tian deng turn out kinda enjoyable ...hope all our wishes come true !!





Jap food @sun moon




Ji romantic sia ...




A collage of my beloved 5 darlins !!

Oh ... I m touched to have my darlins with me ... They nv fail to show me concern ... Although sometime we make each other blood boil. But still m grateful for them ... Love u guys !!

It's been a long time since I blogged ... Last wk was fruitful .. Went USS , Natas fair n jacky cheung concert !! The concert was great .. Realli gd vocals, but I still love sammi more !! I m
a super loyal fan. I had a great day screaming with ah wan
onthe roller coaster .. It was fun !! think maybe I shall upload the pics tml. As for Natas ... Yeah Korea is booked !! Finally !!






Went to put tian deng !!












Yeah .. Next up is swan lake with comfy rubbish bin aka 女人。

Went movie with mummy today ... Long time since I bring her go watch movie le ... hehe ... I m a gd girl today ! First time I wash toilet . It's time to be nt so spoilt . Ytd went eski bar with Cimb peeps.





Chen huixin happily sleeping on my bed !! Love n hate relationship with this soulmate




Eski bar platter ...

Today is such a nua ing day at hm . But it's good too since I have been a hyper active girl , almost everyday go out. Sometimes I get into the goin out "kick" that I dun wanna go hm... I think I have been spending money like no body biz .. haiz .. I
Realli think I new to buy more
Office wear .. So Sian every time
Whr same clothes ...

We r the 4s now .. (frm left) Snoob, Simone, Stupid n Squid


It was a forced smile by me ..

This is a sincere smile.

Today was a laughing day.. Had another round of er xin gui darlin's bdae outing. It was so much better today.. at least my mood was good n felt comfortable . The whole day was laughin at squid. Hahaha ..

I m gonna have slim fingers again !!!

ah!!!! i feel so fat !!! So so fat .... everytime i wanna jian fei then give up halfway .. the hearbal life determination n habbit has gone ... i dun care this time i m so gonna jian fei .. if nt i dun have clothes to wear to go korea . n i wanna go hk and buy more clothes ... I m goin back to herbal life ON 1 Aug ... Chen huixin is gonna be my trainer , cause she so fuckin scolded me for leting myself go down n down ... i m gonna change my laptop wallpaper to determine myself .

Mr Curry after training .. Part 2 on 30th !!

BBQ at Queens

I m super duper broke .. luckily tml is pay day.. in the upcomin mths i will continue to be broke too lor .. tml is back to work .. ah super sian abt that. its gonna be a long wkend with class on sat morning .. Haiz ...hope the week will pass smoothly with me removin stitches tml, sat training , and sun si nu ren bdae celebration @ some steakhse ..

Surprise !! Heheehe !! It's so fortunate to be my darlin...

Babyxin came to visit me today!! Feel so loved , even though she always say love me lesser le. have been slpin a lot for the wk . And so fast the wk has passed. Dun wanna go back to work !! Haiz .. Stayin at hm like so out of the world .. Luckily ah da give me updates .. Heheh ...

Cant wait for holiday with Hx. But I think I will come back with bruises.

stayin home .. its just drama non stop.. totally immersed myself in the drama. Haiz .. its time to start lookin at korea stuffs le .. watchin drama realli makes me wanna go jeju FNE. But dun noe whr shld i start planning. Hmm.. i cant wait for the trip with bbxin. Its time we stitch back the friendship that we built. Dun wanna anything to happen for me to lose the friendship. As much as every women needs a man who loves her . A women also need a fren that is truly loves n be by her side to hug n cry together. October .. Faster come!

My pig ears ...

Tried nt to take painkillers today ... But still just took one tablet before slpin . Pain kinda comes n goes ... Super ma huan is when slpin n bathing... rough sleeper like me , can't turn sides when i slp is super xin ku ...

wonder wat are we so engross abt ??

In the midst of dancing

CIMB GANG !

Group pic of all the crazy peeps !

Another tiring but fun sat .. ktv session started in the afternoon .. At first tot it would not be as enjoyable .. but the outcome was kinda gd .. we were like a bunch of crazy ppl in the ktv room , smuggled drinks n chips.. after ktv it was wine bos again ..kinda like the cosy place , just that the waitress all a little noob make me pek chek ..

Havin op on Monday afternoon . Although it's nt the first time.. But I still feel scared scared ...
I wish I can bring something to hug in ... LA on the ears is super painful . n after op also will pain ... It will be a painful wk... It's like I have been lookin forward to cut the damm thing off so that I can tie hair .. Seriously can't rem when I tied hair . But hopefully I won't have too deformed ears .

It's haiz x 100 times .... Just finish watching my hk lawyer drama ... N seein the drama is like a reflection ... even the episode is like reminding me lor .. The cycle has started again n it always disrupts my perfect planning .. happy gift , again gt to be apology gift .. Haiz ..I shld just shut up n be quieter like before. but character change le also can't reverse , no matter how much I want to.

it's been a long time since I touch my diary..which is a gd thing. Cos diary r for the deepest tots n super duper emotional days .

had a great dating session with Annice darlin ... Just the two of us in our world ... Just like before...heart to heart talk was great too.. I m realli grateful to have Annice darlin in my life.. Haha .. It reminds me of the emo drama I m watchin .. 49 days ...

In fact I m grateful to all my Darlins. Sometimes my words may seem too " flirt" but it's truthful frm my heart .. Well, no one is perfect.. Friendship takes 2 hands to clap n also makin the extra effort to kp everything going . Times may be good n bad ... But as long as there is a "xin" for each other . Everything can be overcome. In the midst of being busy , it takes effort for meet up n showin that concern.

My life is nt just abt myself. It's also abt the ppl who played a part too.

recently I realized I v long time haven seen some ppl le ... Annice tan is definitely in the list .. thinking of SIM days we lead our lives everyday together, during holidays we also still see each other everyday n lead our "Atas" living. But there is no re play button in life .

Recently mummy kp telling me that she wants to retire after settling everything . It just kinda bring fear in me that I nd to look after my mum in monetary terms , but currently now , I m still askin her to give me stuffs that I want . with my pathetic pay n ambitious travel plans . Whr on earth m I gg to get money.

Haiz ... Sometimes I wish auntie Vicki was still around to pei mummy . with her support n company we would feel better. Time flies .. it's gonna be 3 yr anniversary. Enjoying new yrs eve will always make me feel guilty.

Think I m getting old .. played n got super hyper ytd till 3am .. woke up with body ache .. This shows that I have been a gd girl nt stayin out late ... Transformers was great today even though the whole day I was being cranky with ah wan... mummy fracture her big toe nw ... Fall at the door steps . Luckily nt v serious.. it's gonna be a borin week without ah da .. Missing her so much that I call wrg names ...