The feelin of being angry at someone is tiring , but the feelin of someone being angry at u is worse . A person with such high pride in me hates being ignored . Hates when I am talkin to a wall n hates not talkin things out.

I just hope everything will end on the start of next yr .

Hate the feelin of uncertainties ... sometimes I wonder , why do
I care when ppl dun give a damm...

Haiz ... sometimes i feel so tiring communicating with ppl and yet that is my job. With my fussy-ness and also strong pride, sometimes i feel so tired.. And sometimes after there is more tiring stuffs for me to deal with. Self - restrained is something that i learnt this christmas in church. But which human can realli fufill that, each of us are feel that we r the one that is more ke lian.

Just being emo today... cause i m tired .. realli tired.. tired of the fact that why cant ppl be more understanding n consider my feelings.. Yet this is a thought of self centered-ness

Still feelin fan n worried .... Wakin up not feelin excited on the day ahead ... But just wantin the day to be smooth n problems solved ... When will l feel that life is a interesting mix of joy n sorrow ?

Waitin for doc at nuh ... Hungry cause it's 11, lunch time .... Bored ...








Pics from Evan farewell.... Still waiting for doc ..... gt to
Endure pain again later .... Haiz ....

It has been an "rollercoaster" week for me again. But more "rollercoaster " rides to come. Sometimes i realli feel that i am so suay ... Although we know that there are countless ppl around the world or around us that are worse, its still hard to avoid indulging in self pity at times.

However, when i self pity , i feel that i have greatly sin . Seeing the verdict now , and also looking back at our lives, i realli feel that god has every thing planned for us. It depends on us to appreciate his planning. Sometimes i realli miss the old me, but on the other hand the old me was strong but unhappy. Now at least i learn to be appreciative of the ppl ard me, even though they did not realli do things that are super super touchin or so , but just a little concern alrd i am appreciative of that. Hahaha .. Thats why the number of darlins i have has increased yr by yr ! Until chen huixin has alrd give up ! hahaha..

To all my darlins, thanks for all the concerns .. Although u all might not feel that u all do a lot or realli help or consoled me , but i realli appreciate every word of concern.


Days ahead will be hard, even harder than before. But i believe everything will come to an end soon.

PS : Ah da mei, u see me every day, so pls bear with my off n on emo-ing.. Thank u ah da !