do troubles go away , or you go away from troubles ?

Today is mood less day ..  to forgive someone , is not hard. But u can only forgive when its not causing hurt anymore , in other words that means it has become a past . How can i possibly be  happy and tolerant when things are still happening now and then. It's realli tiring . Especially tiring when i cannot do anything , i feel so helpless or even hopeless. I dun even know what to do , cause its a never ending story. Then only solution i can think of is to get myself out of it . But how ? When ? All i can do i to wait till the day when i'm financially independent .

Dealing with an internal struggle is the hard.

Feeling kinda no mood today , cause i have some thinkings last night. Time flies and i am left with only one year in uni , by then i will be a degree holder. This word or status in my mind i have always felt that by that time i will be independent and brave enough to meet watever obstacles , because i will be 23 by then.  However , being at 21 now , i have not gain the level of independence and mature mentality that i want to acheive . Is it because of the people around me ? Is it because of the "new young generation that is happy go lucky?" , or is it because of the way i lead my life . Everyone's definition of independence varies , of course some might think that shopping alone , watching a movie is independence. I think my definition of independence so chim that i dun even know who to put in words. And sometimes , i will even rebut myself on my definition. haha.. Anyway, i think i learnt one thing yesterday ,  a person's mentality will not necessarily grow as she grows older. Mentality , perceptions, thinking is all within oneself. The external environment influence it, but to what extend are u influenced by it ?

Hmm.. exam stress with personal stress. I shall go cope with it on my treadmill... :)

Oh , i forgot .. Happy Birthday Gwee , i dun noe if u see this . It's realli nice having u as a good friend since primary school. And because our lives are so much different, i have always kept that curiousness in wanting to know u more . Go girl , i hope to see ur works in the cinema or S.A.M one day . Pursue ur dreams at no cost.

A lot of ppl make my blood boil today , first was the people in sch who were talking loudly at the study corner. It least have some considerations la . I know its ur culture to talk loudly , but come on , when u are in another country , u are suppose to adapt to the environment , and nt let us adapt to u. If nt just jolly well go back home case singapore just dun suit u.

Then its our famous friend who disappears and dun reply sms like since poly. Guess she dun have luck with mobile phones.  Yes ms huang its u . U make my boil blood for not replying my sms from ytd night till today. Ask us out to study and then disappear. Jacintha is a person who needs to have a feel of control of everything in her life. I really dun like uncertainties. Shu wen, we like ur company always, but its realli so hard to see ur face and words sometimes

Yup next is predictable la . My father. I seriously hate ppl to ask me what things i should do in life. Dun tell me what i should study and what career i should have. i know what i want in life better than u , even if i dun noe what career should i take , u will never be the person i seek advice from. Dun ever try intefere in my life , cause all u know is vent ur anger on us. U always think that the whole world owes u something. Whatever u owed us you can never  ever return and we dun need it anymore.

Ok , after ranting it all out , i feel so much better.

went to do my nails yesterday. I sat till my backside pain lor . From 4pm to 10.30pm , extended my nails ! Its really so amazing that there are so many steps to it. But extended nails , make me so gentle. i don't even dare to open a can of drink. haha.. But i really love it. so beautiful..  Luckily, i almost done with typin exam notes if nt, i will take hrs to type a chapter.

Back to muggin !

To the sick ..

 

Baby and daphy is sick today. And i when i receive their sms, it realli makes me grin. Can see that they are being manja lor. And stupid baby show her concern still kena scolding. Really very hard to pleased her. Ok darlings, u two better take care and rest well. Lots of ppl have been feeling unwell lately, due to the hot and cold weather i guess. I'm nt spared too, and also receive my lesson of DO NOT DRINK WHEN SICK ! I am seriously traumatised by the Maggie mee puke.

Can't go clubbing this wed to celebrate hy bdae . So sorry girl , ( if u read ) its good friday and i need to fast , can't drink and must go on light meals. Realli sorry, oh man i'm gonna miss out the fun.. 

Okie .. i shall be a motivated SIM student and start studying now! Take care!

Chalet

 

Annice's first reaction when we step into the "scary" chalet. Two of us just sat in the hall, and munch on corn flakes. Poor girls.

My beloved backpack , that caused much laughter ! Come on, i'm a sporty chick k.

 

After a nice bath , we regained energy ! And ... HAVOC !!

Ben started his meditation ..

da , forced us on takin this pic , and its fuckin weird !

The 3 heroes !

Steward little aka Ah boon and his magic cards !

Opps ! Candid !

 

Why the hell did i raise my hand so high ?

 

Amanda gone crazy , and keeps feeling hungry , so sted is tearing .. " Why is my gf like that ?"

Another weird pic taken by da

Yup , and its photographer da again !

Another failed !

This has little improvement !

Candid .. But good emotions captured !

Annice and I having fun !

The 3 hot babes ! Whom went unglam on the 2nd day !

Annice always spends hours in front of the mirror !

After bath , 6 stomachs began calling ! So ... Kitchen!

Women at work ! Men back off !

This hand seriously can't cook !

Ben looks happier when he is cookin.. Indeed loves food huh !

Ok , this was when major problem occured ! We were dealing with sticky pans !

Annice was the first to save the victims ! ( Dumplings )

Then came amanda , whom did a good job in saving them.

Look at Ben's satisfied face with his pan of noodles ! Ben can Cook !

Busy with their maggie !

Wow ! Got skill sia !

 

I and da saved the victims , and sted trying to see if they had side effects ! But it taste good !

Look at the smoke ! We were chocking 

The following pics were taken by da.. It consist of all her shots of her daddy !

Oh man .. This is R21 ! So seductive ..

I think they realli bend at right angles that fit ! Amazing !

Second day cooking !

Man at work ! And me playing with the eggs , da playin with the cam !

Dinner time !

Whats on the menu ? Eggs , Luncheon Meat , Old Chang Kee Assorted

 

I've been sleepin beside a ghost !

Annice Auntie face ! Good Shot !

 

Finally .. We celebrated our chalet time with Mr Vod , and the three babes gt wasted ! It was my worst chalet havoc time ! 3 times of puking ! I broke my record !

 

Darlins .. No Mr Vod or Mr Hen , Mr Chi for some time ok ! My puke still haunts me !