projects , CNY ? No , still projects ..

Its gonna be CNY, and my bdae.. Dun have much feeling for both , cause my mind is just filled with projects, i am still not fully recovered, with lots of phlgem .. I hate coughs man .. Make me sound like a man .. Projects is tirinig everyone out . Its been a long time since i lead some chilling lifestyle. Bcos of projects, i actually had to forgo seeing charmaine in singapore lor .. Such a rare chance , u know .. If its sammi , i than dun care wat projects man .. Die die must go . Bcos of projects i pang sei daph kinda few times le , now i am the one that fly kites. Act , projects kinda make me away from daphy n dada.. i always have meetings, and they have meetings too.. so its like realli been a long time since i have a good laugh with them. Turning 20 soon, and my bro is nt back from aus.. he's accompany he's gf 25th birthday , and nt my 20th ! My bdae wish is simple and sweet .. I WANNA GET INTO UNI ! no one can give me that, except god now..haha ..

Okok .. i need to chiong projects again..

3 more weeks ..chiong ah !

wow , its been ages since i blog , i seriously like seeing sammi's day dreaming pic on my blog , so at times i wanted to blog , but did nt .. how silly i am . Ok i am sick today and like i have to continue to chiong . Last week IMC was crazy. But i think after being frank today, i felt much better. In projects, there is no 100% like the grp member, no one where u can 100% agree with . Well, if its not too demanding , den just ren lor. I know that ren is a bad thing, but if very thing also get angry then u will lead a miserable life. Of course , if ppl are too much , then show then ur colours lor.

I am graduating soon, and in a less than 2 months time, i need to hard core find job. I hate working, bcos i hate seeing the double head snakes in offices. I hate seeing bosses being unreasonable.. etc.. haha, tai tai is the best job for me la , or bein a boss lor. i think one person that is like standing by me , is hui xin, no matter what i face in sch , it seems to dissappear when i sms or hear her voice. her words of encouragement has been there throughout sec sch , and now poly. realli grateful to have her.. she must be thinkin i am siao to write this , but seeing poly life ending and also turning 20 soon, i realli felt i have seen a lot of kinds of ppl. It's hard to find someone u feel comfortable with.

Seriously, vivan day dreams like that too.. haha.. ( but .. sammi is cuter)

butt hurts !

aaahh .. my butt hurts from sitting on the chair and researching and doin the projects. luckily i managed to finish wat i planned except the research part is uncomplete. Man, next week is a full week for IMC , and IB studyin on the train... hehe .. i dun realli like to study on the train, but looks like i have to make use of every second. Hmm .. sat and sunday was IMC projects also.. Baby xin gave me my teacher's blog , and when i read it , it was like so unbelievable .. The baby is so tiny, i can hold it with one hand, the face was black , and the number of tubes on its body. Realli so poor thing, maybe thats why god wanted to take her back ba. I realli can image 19 years ago , i was like that too, but of course i was nt that tiny , little bigger. I was pale instead of red . I am realli so luckily to be sitting here typin this. Always felt that my life was a gift from god , so when he wants to take back it anytime, i am more than willing. Just hope that it's not a horrible process. haha ..

The look of my teacher was realli bad, i can imagine the suffering she went thru, and somemore she's the emotional type. If i were her, i think i would not be able to live anymore. I think she has become a strong women now. Although i did not realli like her back in sec sch, now i seriously wonder why is she so unlucky..

Busy, stress..

These few days have realli been so mind-tiring .. (what kind of eng man) .. yeah was nt in a good mood for the past few days, damm stress, so many things to do , so many things to rush. Its ok rushin for all these stuffs and dealin with the stress.. but i still have to deal with other problems, ( the usual project probs) and it brought my mood even down further. Wanted to go down and run to " fa xie" but its always heavily raining.. haiz want to "fa xie" also can'.. ok but nvm la ... Oh ester dear , met up with us on friday unfortunately was realli too busy to have lunch with her.. Need to get back to projects..

today its nt a good day , i am kinda taken aback by the role play , although the teacher said i was fine, but i know i am nt. ok that the damm ms lee , irritated me. I dun give a damm on her man , if she wants to make our marks hell , and carry on her style of marking , then too bad, but we have to complain. Its the last sem, we are goin all out to get what we deserve. I am very dissapointed with the marks i get so far, but i know that the marks are what i deserve. I am very worried about uni , and i think that the chances of very slim, but i am just gonna go all out again. Must acheive wat i acheived last sem. Ok , another thing that i am realli realli pissed is that my mother gt bullied by one of the" Singapore" boss in her company. That fuckin guy keep hinting my mum to leave before june so that she will nt get her 1o thousand bonous , and he can pocket that money. He do these when the big CEO of the company is nt in Singapore, so he wants to get rid of her before the big boss comes back. What rights u have man. U are just sacred that my mum will report to ICAC , that u are just like the NKF CEO.

I had enough of u man, i dun wan to see my mother cry and get worried abt work when she is alrd 55 years old. I will nt let anyone bully my mother and bro, no matter how timid i am , if u dare bully them then i will go all out give u back 10 ten times. I realli feel like burining down his house, so greedy of money, one day u will go bankrupt and i will stand there and laugh at u. I will monitor wat fuckin stuffs he is up to. And if he dare make my mother cry again, i will make sure he get his retribution. I am a different person if u bully my family. My bro is pissed too, and i know that he will nt let my mother get bullied. He asked my mother to stop lettin them bully her, just resign.

Today is realli fucked up , i was feelin so stress in the afternoon, i may be laughin and playin with the rest but at the back of head is thinking abt the test , exams and projects. Enough

I just want to be simple and happy.
But what is simple in my defination and what is happy ?
Still searching for a right answer, an answer that i can truly convince myself.

i am so addicted to huang zhen yi .. such a great sad show. A love story that is so heartbreaking.

Hmm, ytd i went to see the doc for my damm ear, and i was refered to NUH for the op , nt national skin centre. Haiz.. going for operation is very ma huan , gt to be naked onli can wear a thin cloth to cover the body and then must lie on the operation bed in the operating theater. My anthesia is local , so they gt to inject. And injection for that anthesia hurts. All these i have to bear. But anyway, its still a long way more , see what the doc has to say on my app. ( Haiz .. i pierce this hole all bcos of Sammi lor, its my fav ear hole)

The whole singapore is on sale man. Even JP has sale too. Went vivo to shop and i bought 4 basics from Esprit and 3 bottoms for river island. Damm cheap ! My cupboard has no more space alrd, some clothes i wanna throw, but throw also very waste. I need to find a day to pack my cupboard again.

"A person's most valuable asset , is happiness from the heart''

Wah so long never blog le.. Its 2008 ! and i am gonna be 20 years old .. haha .. i am makin a big fuss that i am 20. Well 2007 ended , with my time spend with daphy and rui en . 2008 started with hui xin. Haha ... Had a unusual way of counting down ytd , all our efforts were paid off.. So happy that rui en remembered me , and she saw us , and also the sign board that i made and which daph hold upside down... haha.

I think 2007 has been a confused year for me. Also a year of tears, and laughter n freedom. 2008? I hope it would be a good year too. Hopefully i will be healthy and acheive some other stuffs in life. Well, i believe god has plans for me as long as i dun give up.

Happy New Year Peeps !