The start to adulthood

 

Oh man , just when i am about to blog , i feel like shittin. Shall make it a quick post .

Ok firstly need to thank everyone who made my day a great one ytd . The whole of sisterhood , plus peh yun , Baby , annice and da . And also thanks to stedson for holding the cake and balloons . I realli had an enjoyable and memorable 21st bdae. Unfortunately i did not get drunk , cause the feelin of pukin was really bad. Thanks for everyone who wished me too . Had a few surprises among them. Hehe ...

Ok , i need to shit then go sleep liao . Photos will be uploaded soon k . Rushin for projects too.. See ya soon guys .

 

Sisterhood !

 

Ainah had a nice sleep at powerhouse ! That naughty hand belongs to carrot !

 

 

Happy Family !

 

Ho Chin Minh

 

 

Can u imagine staying in such a place ?            We had a nice boat trip !  

 

 

This is the cu chi tunnel , where the vietnam ppl hide durin war time . That small little hole is the entrance . Onli thin ppl can go in , thats why the US troops can't get in !

 

 

 

I stopped by Paris ! Seriously love this building !

 

  Vietnam Lao Po Bing

 

 

Took a lot of pics of Vietnam, cause we went to a lot of interesting places , like the coconut monk island , and cu chi tunnels . Vietnam is a city of triangle hats and motorcycles. The road traffic will scare any singaporean . But after the first day of training , on the second day i and mummy cross the roads like vietnamese. Haha .. Oh i must say that that the food there are delicious , we ate Elephant ear , and dragon egg . These two names scared the whole tour and we all so scared at the lunch table .. Ended up ? It was elephant ear fish , a fish that looks like elephant ear. And dragon egg , was like damm nice , its make up of some starchy ingredents . But their food are very healthy, everything has mint leaves .

 

Ainah's bdae was fun at powerhouse ,except the fact that  i was in my own world dancing , but the waiters kept comin in my way. But i woke up the next morn and puke foam lor . So horrible , i puke and teared at the same time . I also dun noe why vomit will tear lei . So weird . Anyway, next up is my bdae .. Hopefully it wld be fun too !

life

After losin such a close person , a person i treated like my mum . I was like her daughter too after she lost her own . It realli make me wake up to a lot of things . Life and death is very sudden , aunty did not even know that she would go off . We were laughin just a week ago .

The most horrible momemnt is seeing the blood pressure figure slowly goin down . And the figure on top of the machine had 0. I realli wanted to throw a chair at the machine . When the doc said that there is onli 2 hrs left , i was prayin so hard for a miracle. WHY WHY WHY was all in my head . When blood flowed from the mouth , it was so scary . God realli will just take us when our time is up . They way of livin life is so impt , on ur death bed what are the things you are able to reflect or feel satisfied that u have done .

I dun wanna remember how many clubs i went to , i dun wanna remember which pub i have not visited , which cocktail i have not tried , which guy i did not kiss , how many guys i were crazy over , how many ppl i have in friendster .

What is important is the time u enjoyed your life with your loved ones, enjoyin life alone is seriously not enough. After losin someone so dear, i realli which to hug all the people i loved so dearly and not allow god to take them away from me . So , what is most important to me now is takin care and spending time with the people i love . So that even if i die the next min , they will have memories with me , and i will have memories to bring to heaven .

 

Jesus , after seeing mummy so hysterical , i know that if i die earlier than her , she won't be able to take it . Of course , if mummy leaves me i will be hysterical too , but i realli dun wanna see my mum like that when i die . So if you actually want me to die before mummy , can pls make her strong . I promise you i will live my life properly from now on . Pls also give me the courage to do so . I love you . Oh , pls take care of jie jie and aunty for me ok !  See you .

Dear jie jie zairyn , 

 

I was 12 yrs old when u left us. At that point of time i was confused as to why god make u leave me . I remebered you said you will bring me out to clubbin when i grow up . Like a sister , u showered me with all the love. i could not accept it , but luckily u will always appear to me in my dreams and give me signs to show me you are happy up there. I realli miss you alot . Now, aunty vicki has gone to join you up there. She realli missed you lot when you left , so i guess she will be happy with you up there now. Pls help us take care of her . We will all miss you two and will never forget you. Although there are many things that we have not done, i will never forget the love you all gave me , as a sister and a 2nd mum .

I keep askin god , why must he always take away my loved one so suddenly within weeks , its really very heartbreaking to see your love ones goin away. Anyway, i know that you all are in good hands now , with peace and without suffering. I will go up and join you all when my time is up too.

Aunty , pls guide over mummy , cause she misses you a lot , let her be strong . Also , give me the strength to look after mummy . Bye..

 

With lots of love ,

jacin .

New Year !

 

Tml is the last day of 2008... Hmm .. honestly i dun noe if it is a good year or bad year. In terms of the world , as usual its worse than 2007 , in terms of my life i can only say that i experience  a lot of different things in this year. A quite memorable year.

New year resolutions do not mean anythin to me. I forgot if i made any in 2008 ..

Christmas Eve with the gays !

 

 

Went play for christmas eve with daph. I met xin kai there ! Been seein my schmates at clubs nowadays.

Pics

Okie .. these are the long awaited pics .

 

Our 2nd ladies light ..Met zhen wan and nana at double O , and introduced them to this crazy bunch. Okie .. i have no time to blog ... Bye !