Freedom is an issue to me

I finally gt a job,dada n i went for interview today , its a samsung promoter job. Yah it would be good experience for me since i have nt done sales, and the company is media cum marketing company. but when i reached home, lyin in my own comfort zone watchin tv, suddenly i have the urge to call in tml and say that i dun wanna work. I think i am too qian jin xiao jie alrd. ahaha. Because the thought of sloggin 6 days a week for money and just to past time makes me feel that i am wastin my life also.( i think i am crazy) Act i had plans of wat to do if i dun get a job, i wanna go and take the diploma in psychology part time course at American Alliance Asia. I made enquires a long time ago alrd. yah its my dream to be a clinical psychologist, i am too stupid la , so i only can stick to biz industry as my career. Okie i just spoke to mummy , and she ask me to go and find out how long is the course , and she will give money to learn.. i need to go and check it out. holidays makes me feel lost, sch makes me stress. work is a drag. wat muumy say is correct , the best job for me is a full time tai tai, everyday watch hk drama , eat dim sum. But .. No sugar daddy. haiz..

Friendships are fragile

had a long talk with hx ytd, she wrote a long post to scold me on her blog . so idot. But luckily i we talked on the phone and i finally managed to understand how she feels. I realli did not show enough concern abt her life , that is because i always take her for granted, i know that she will not abandon me , and no matter wat problems i meet , she will walk through it with me . But i guess , i shld nt take her for granted anymore . i know that my change has made an impact on her. and also has impact on my friendship . Well i just hope that things will get better , with both of us trying hard

I hate holidays..

i hate holidays, it makes me moody and bored.

I am not in a good mood today , seriously i feel that i have this blog to write and express my true feelings. I know who i am , and wat i feel. I don't expect anyone to think based on their assumptions. If no matter how many times i try to explain , it still does nt statify u , then i am tired. Its tiring to let u see my blog and then it affects u , i know u are nt angry but sad, but it still affects me, cause i don't want to make u sad. I know that friendships are very fragile and sometimes fake, but that will never ever happen to us , cause we have been thru so much. I never thot of replacing u just because we r nt beside me all the time.

I wanted my good frens n u to know how am i doing and also let them see my thots on some stuffs where are difficult for me to be said in words. i hope that u will nt compare urself with my other frens. I know whatever i write here is gonna affect u again. But everything here is my true thoughts . Sometimes i dun noe what to say or do tat will make u feel secure. We are both very dependent on each other. And i know that we both do a lot to maintain the friendship so i dun want any changes to happen.


Sometimes i feel like having a heck care attitude

Slackin day with dada

Pics are posted upon request by Huang shuwen

At chalet .. this is the level of craziness of my class


The peeps, my fav hangout gang

My fav classmates !
Dada loves ice cream ?
The toilet is ours again Can u imagine the ppl lookin at us in the toilet

han zhi en/ghost / ester dear/ sotong/ lala

Okie i shall force myself to dedicate this post to ester voon now ! ( hehe.. )

My goodness, this is the second time i am dedicating a post to this silly girl. My babyxin is gonna kill me .. ahaha. Actually already written a card to her lor, but then i also wanna to keep it in my blog for memories. Luckily this blog is private n confidential, so far onli babyxin, dada n ester dear knoe.

Ok i shall start now. Ok the boycott stuffs we 2 will always remember la, so no need to blog so much about it . hmm .. this silly girl was qian bian classmate to me in the first part of year 1. Actually i dislike her even more , before we boycott her. During boycott process, i act felt that she was very poor thing. After that i was quite affected abt the boycottin.. cause its fucking tiring n i felt damm gulity n angry with myself. Hmm, act year 1 i still had sec sch attitude , but ppl changed and I AM A GOOD PERSON NOW ( its my fav phrase nw , bcos of someone) .

Then after i noticed that this silly girl has changed, i began to accept her more. But still we just normal hi - bye classmates. Onli at csc n bsu. Where she helped on that joel thingy.. ahah i still remember how silly we were. Then bsu, it was one of the happiest poly times for me , cause we laugh n play all day. Those times made me understand her more and also built up our friendship. I must say that this silly girl, is the most caring person to me in poly. Always scoldin me to go see doc when i am sick, and never fail to cheer me up when i am down. This kind of concern has made me realised that she will be a friend that i won't want to forget,n will always remember. Although will be ppl talking abt her, bcos her apperance is forever qian bian to ppl la .. haha. but i always never choose to listen, and sometimes i will help her explain if possible. Cause i onli see how she treat me and not what ppl think abt her.

Oh , there was a time where we had a little quarrel, over projects. yah, act when we quarrel, it realli did not feel good lor. I was disappointed, affected until i can't balance my balance sheet for entre.. hmm but everyone have their bad points n good points, so sometimes we shld not maximise ppls bad points. Unless the person is nt realli a gd person la. But ester dear, is a good silly girl. I will always remember this friend, and i am gonna miss her when she can't pinch me for 4months. Gonna miss her concerns and her callin me barney! Take care girl. All the best! Barney loves u !

Chalet Pics

My dearest dada.. I miss her so much now. I can't see her everyday!dbbq time
Too much eatin had made vivian n mandy mad
Its a class pic ! ( half a class onli )
Mr ong is the best n cutest form teacher we had in poly

I like this pic .. (even thogh my mouth is damm big)
Pretty ladies ..
( the person behind looks scary .. ) and its mandy
Had fun during preparation
2 wicked sisters n one poor yx

Happily shopping for bbq stuffs
Guess who's that ? Its ester voon!
Cute cute kai lin
This silly girl was too touched by us. ( luckily don't have pic of me crying .. ahaha)
Plucking chicken hair !! It made me go crazy!

Our first chalet

after a two days chalet, i am so damm tired, and my body is aching.. But had real fun with all the crazy peeps in my class. Although was quite pissed by some ppl at times for keep slpin and slacking and not helping out. and also i bit emo . Mandy was angry too. But we had great fun overall , esp spending hours plucking chicken hair. The first day we had ester dear farewell , we crazy peeps sang peng you and also bought a cake. Then after that we a speech session, haha .. and most of us cried. that stupid ester made me headache and feel like vomiting la. before that we 2 were drinking and watchin tv, then the peeps came down and we play , cried and sang and take photo. By that time i was like oh no i wanna vomit. But did nt vomit la. So heng. The speech was quite touching. i had to hide behind the sofa , cause when i cry, its fucking ugly. Saw the video we took. My speech was actually very bo liao, i was the first to say ah , so speechless. Maybe later i shall dedicate a post to that sotong lala.

The sec was bbq nite , and... onli mr ong, julia and kexian came!! idot daph fly my kite, when i purposely go n make potato egg salad for her! damm it lor. but we had fun gossiping with julia n kexian. ahaha .. Gossipin is wat our hobby.While we gossip , we drank. Finally, i and vivian gt drunk .. not fully drunk but half durnk .. very xin ku lor. we kept laughin and laugin, and my head was spinning.. i vomited .. its the sec time that i was so drunk that i was seeing stars and also vomit. Shuwen say the uglyist sight of me vomiting .. because silly me did not lock the toilet door. hmm thats all for the memories of our MK0504 class chalet. Pics time again now .. lots n lots of pics.