I'm just sick and tired... I wanna disappear again !

Today was another adventure with Annice Tan.. As usual the two sua ku's had an eye opener experience. We went to CASINO .. Yup, u all must be wondering its impossible for Jacintha to spend 100 bucks to go in and do things that is " waste of time and life" to her... haha... Well, of course not .. SOMEONE brought us in. Haha.. Our sugar KOR KOR ... We spend 6hrs in the casino!!! And we did not win a single cent, but we did not lose a single cent too .. Haha cause we never bet!!! Yup, we only did gamblers , luck, aunties and dealers analysis. Unfortunately .. our fren lost 5k.

The amount of money ppl lose in ten mins , can be the monthly salary of half of Singapore population. Yup , its scary. One plastic is worth 500 bucks .. Within 2 mins , its gone. Gambling is 10 lose, 1 win , odds. So its hard for me to understand are ppl thinking. Seeing the amt of aunties puting their life savings on the table.. Its kinda predictable that the govt will have lots of trouble "soon" . We shall just see! Anyway, for frens who gamble, its ok to gamble a little for the fun of it. But pls dun be greedy and know when to stop. Gambling is fatal.

Boat boat

i suddenly feel so sleepy , that i dun feel like doin projects. Just had boat boat dinner at my house with the clubbing peeps. Yup , this wed we very healthy, not a bit of vodka , all we had was corn soup. Annice's corn soup is so nice that even my brother finish a bowl of it. Hehe... Had lots of laughter.

Tml is first court hearing.. It super early.. 9.30am lei.. But i need to be bodyguard tml, since my bro is workin and mummy say he dun wanna get too involved. I realli think i should be a man la. I am doin so many stuffs like a man. Annice and Da just sms me that their eyes closing. So qiao.. Sleepyheads!!!!

dreams make u confused with reality.
Sometimes u just wanna continue dreaming ,
sometimes you wanna faster wake up.
Sometimes u hope ur dreams become reality.
But dreams indeed play a huge part in one's life.
Sleeping would be so boring without dreams.

My dream's director,
Thank u for giving me wonderful dreams.
Sometimes u tell me what my heart and mind dont.

2nd birthday celebration !!!

This is the most healthy pasta that i can choose in essential brew, cause its stir fry with olive oil , and they use very little oil ..

Daph was too hungry , pls pardon her !!!

uploaded my 2nd birthday celebration !! ( all pics copyright frm da blog) I feel so fortunate to have 3 sweet celebrations this year. One at modestos , one with hui xin , and one at essential brew. I had a super big hello kitty balloon and a teddy bear. Thanks da, for realli goin to buy a bear for me. I named it Xiao Jian Jr. Next year buy bigger one k !! Hhaha..

And guess what ? For all three celebrations , i ate pasta.. So freaking fat this month , plus all the cny food. Two steamboats and cantonese vegetarian ( The HAM family dish ) in just 3 days . Steamboat at home with mummy was fun! This year , not a single hong bao , i kinda forgot the very lively cny celebrations we used to had. And the super big hong baos we had last time , still remember i bought my first playstation with hong bao money. Haiz.. but i guess the market has dropped for you guess too right. Never mind la, as long as u are still the one receiving can le. Hehe... Ok back to projects !

Song : 我以为
By : 品冠


你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为
你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力

填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

A freaking sad song ..Listen also can make the heart hurt so much ... (Mtv is at my tool bar! )

Just some pics that i gt from da's blog .. I hate this week cause its WIL , a stupid subject,talking abt cover letters , resumes and interview . I have been doin this from NYP till SIM .. A formal interview on thur , never even give us mental preparation time, and its 20% weightage

This year i can't take ang pow again.. Its the 2nd consec year. My grandfather's first wife died .. Which is my step po po. So all the HAM family can't celebrate , i can cause its my mum side.. But still its a form of respect , u should respect the dead nt the living .. ( Thats what my mum said , sounds weird.. but its true) Anyway , CNY to me , is nothing much except for pineapple tarts. My bro just came back from bkk , and hearing that i'm goin bkk too .. He gave me 2500thb . Its hundred plus sing dollar !!! Which means my shoppin money , i need to save lesser. Just went to see the air ticks , its still the same after they raise the price. Since its alrd ex, book later or earlier nt much diff also la. Haiz.. i must make this trip possible. After this trip , then exams then start lookin for FULL TIME JOB !!! Its so scary ... I know i sound like a loser , but i realli dun want a job where my relatives feel its no prospects. Getting a good job realli matters to me. I hope i can work hard , and save up to open small fnb biz.

i regret nt making some business minded frens , then it would be benefical for me. The only biz minded fren i have is chen huixin , but she's poor. And i dun think we can do biz together anymore, she will come up with "break -up" stun to force me to make a choice. hahaha...