stayin at home has made me feel to comfortable to go out. have been goin out these days and it i am nt very used to the crowd ahha.. Wat a joke .. Stayin home holiday has seriously made me feel so attached to my mother and bro, cause last time i see my frens most of the time, now i see my emails and my bro, and my mum most of time. My bro and my mother are like so worried, when they see me nt eating. Before bro go to work he ask me to make things to eat. but in actually fact i have been eatin more than my i shld last week. Haiz ... hopefull all the small sized clothes in hk will motivate more. I wanna say sorry to amanda for not contacting u , its always u make the move, yah cause jacky feels too comfortable being in my own comfort zone, doing things i wanna n feel like doing. I knoe that every thing is gonna change when sch starts , things would nt stop there just to meet jacintha's pace. Maybe being overprotected by my family makes me rely on them too much ba, but deep down i am still an independent girl who actually no need anyone to make her happy or sad, cause she can be happy, sad and angry by herself.

Amazing huh, my brain is full of spins. Ytd i was tokin to that guy la on the internet , and he was askin why am i single, i wanted to tell him bcos i have high expectations on ppl, bt in the end i did nt cause he's onli a stranger. He asked for my number , i told him " sorry i dun see the need " told him chatting online is more than enough. Oh , cjs just msn me , and for wat ? ask me to vote for his fren songwritiing. This shows how men can be so heartless huh, onli tok to u when they need help. I dun have feelings to him anymore, but it sometimes make me feel so angry that he just disappear. Maybe bcos i disappear from him too. Well everyone has their own life, watever i write , whoever looks at this entry would be able to feel for it cause the person that knows urself best is urself. Sometimes even u urself dun noe urself. Last time i don't even trust myself, not mentioning others. But nw, i am begining to trust myself. Dun ask me to trust a person 100% , it will never happen to me no matter how much i love the person.

Guys .. All the want is more women !

i am chating with this indian guy online .. wat a joke a race which i hate the most, he has a little intellegence, i added him online bcos of the home based job, yup... so far he's been chating as if he is a nice guy, treatin his gf n mother good, and even tell me his problems, well i want to chose to be neutral , but it keeps me wondering why is he tryin to get into my good books, he asked for my pic, and said " i noe u won't show rite" i told him well its onli a pic, wat possibily u can do to me , if u wanna see , then see lor, so i changed my display pic, out of courtesy he showed me his pic too. So far he is like prasing me like hell and also askin me to go out clubbin and have a drink. Come on , u said u love ur gf n u are flirtin with me. Well i am more than willing to play this flirting game, cause i am gonna get back at u .. ahaha.. my sacarstic words shoot u till u r speechless. So far he has nt realli step on my foot so i shall be nice till date. I am nt just like others..

Its been years since i play the flirtin game man.. have nt been in touch with guys for a long time .. ahhaa..

SHOW MI .. " GENG AH ! "

My internet connection gt prob, so now then upload the pics .. My goodness, i am still in "post sammi concert highness" ahaha.. I just can't believe i was so near to her ytd man .. And she was lookin down and talkin to the group of us standing infront. I wish i gt money to fly to shanghai to watch another show.. I am crazy le la. My aunt say my mummy hows the show and my mum said" very nice .. very touching , she become so pretty now" , the songs all very nice and it was more of a very high concert" Oh and she told my aunt luckily we bought the most ex ticks, the view so was so good. ( i am so happy mummy enjoyed the show so much. and she keep askin me to cry loudly so that sammi will notice me. Siao lor )

Just post some pics , for whoever bothers comin to my blog other than myself.

Before the show
And sammi appears..
The stage effects was fabulous

This was the dance part .. the whole stadium went crazy .. Its was so high !!

I will love this women forever .. (ahaha !)

The show ended le .. But no one moved ..

My one n only Sammi ..

i am nt feeling well bcos of the screaming ytd. It was so high, did nt sit back n relax at all . Sammi was sweatin on stage and i was sweatin offstage, cause i had to run to the stage infront to have fuckin near view of her. It was so near, my seat was quite good, but i did nt make use of it cause i was standing infront. It was a great show, mummy enjoyed it so much , keep saying sammi become prettier le, poor mummy had to stand too. Sammi made us cry durin the start of the show where she talked abt her father and also abt her 2 years holiday,and the paparazi stuffs. Then the show procceded to the peak , with all her dance tracks, i tell u.. for that 2n half hr, i was nt in a right state of mind lor.. i just danced, wave to sammi and laugh at sammi's jokes. Every crazy fan was doin the same thing, so hu cares! Oh ,the only dissapointment of the show was her vocals, she had throat infection in the morning, but luckily the hotel send a handsome doctor ( accordin to sammi la) to see her. Yah her vocals was nt very good yesterday, sometimes she had to catch a breath n drink water. But it did nt matter to me , cause whenever i go concert , i prefer the artist to talk n have interactions with the fans rather than just singing.

Oh guess how many pics i took ? 226 pics and some short videos. ahaha.. this is how crazy i was man. Hmm.. there was one sentence where i was very touched when sammi said that, while she was talkin her holiday, one day she thot " hmm its time for me to work le after restin so long" so she went outside, then this red light was blinkin then it turned to the green man, and she said to herself, its time to cross the road " So she said she wanted to tell all of us that " Sammi has already taken her 31A cup and crossed the road " ( so funny ) . But , her figure infront is realli straight one ok.. on tv still gt something, ytd when i was so near to her, its realli flat..

I dun wanna blog to much la , show some pics to u all , to see my one n only Sammi, who makes me do crazy stuffs all the time! Oh , i forgot to blog abt the how crazy the whole stadium of auidence was.. WE DID NOT LEAVE WHEN WENT SHE LEFT , ANDt THE BAND CLEARED Up ! amazing rite, the whole stadium lei, we all wanted more , mummy ask me to sit n front n cry so that sammi will come out. In the end, the ushers chased us out lor. Thats nt the end, when i was abt to go take bus, i saw ppl waiting at the carpark, so mummy say quick go see sammi ! So i ran to the carpark n gt ready my camera, we waited for abt 20 mins , then the uncle say " Sammi go back le la, the police all go back le u all still wait for wat ? " I was so sad, so me n mummy left lor ..

Okok .. pics time

goin for concert later, but i feel very tired.. how to party later sia. I dun wanna stand up, cause i just wanna sit back relax n enjoy the show. But noe all the ppl infront of me is gonna stand up, so i need to stand too.. i just read the webby, some realli hardcore fans actually stand outside her hotel room and stalk her, even go n see wat cup noodle she eats ?My goodness, as much as i wanna tell her she's my biggest idol, i won't go n stalk her like that man.

oh i just got pissed by someone who emailed me, she wants to find a job, but then ask some stupid questions lor, if u r so choosy then dun work la , part time promoter at taka , then still can ask me stupid questions like is the job realli flexible , how i fuckin noe sia. watever, its a small matter, just wanna vent some anger here.

Hmm.. i just feel like bloggin although its borin stuffs again...

I seriously hope that girl will get the job tml, its a cafe job, so i think the interview shld be quite ok. Mummy said something tat realli make me so proud of myself " see! u stay at home also can earn n help be do things , rather then go outside work n waste time" did not realise since when mummy's thinking has been similar.. i had a "sex" talk with mummy just now , i told her that its realli hard to have a bf n nt have sex in now the generation , told her that most of my frens are either mothers or have sex experience alrd. Then she ask me u lei ? ahaha.. i told her i dun have a bf ok, she said if u have will u give him ? I told her i dun wanna be a mom so young, but if i am older like 20 plus then maybe ba .. she told me in a calm manner : " only if u think that u wanna marry him then can " ah ya but in my heart i have 2 conditions on having sex" i must be be above 21yrs old n the guy must love me" i am very conservative girl ok ! n i always believe that if the guy realli loves u , he will respect u. But its so hard to find someone that loves u unconditionally nw.

I was watching this tv show .. and they say aquarians will get stress when they are force to do things, when they can't do what they like , and when they dun have freedom. Its fuckin true!The best way for us to relax is massage n bubble bath. ( Yeah i can bubble bath in the hotel bath tub for 5 days ! i can't wait ) Mummy said she is goin bring me to either penang or bangkok durin the depavali holidays .. i hope it will be true !

Lastly i wanna tell chen huixin that nicholas is damm childish ( i think u realli blind last time) , his msn nick is" executor" dragontooth. Come on , he is one bastard, n he want to seek justice? Act i think dragontooth shld exist, eye for an eye for ppl hu deserve to die is nt wrong actualli .. But actually even the killer dies also so wat man ? the victim will nt feel better too . Torture him in jail may be better..

Yeah !

Yeah , i gt more money le ... hehe.. i love doin home biz now! Its easy to earn and fun. Finding jobs for ppl is meaningful and makes me feel so professional ahaha.. but ... i gt lots of ppl hu are so un - educated, i can't blame them actually cause they are nt in poly yet, so the resume(s) i get realli gives me a heart attack man.

Hmm .. shoppin alone at vivo was peaceful, but nothing caught my eye , reading self improvement books has made me remind myself nt to get angry nowadays. Self improvement books realli makes me feel that how can the author be so perfect. I am tryin to amend my temper a bit nowadays cause getting angry has high posibility of heart attack.hehe

The book teaches ppl wat to do when u are angry, like trying to think in a correct manner. But i think it realli takes time for such a hot tempered person like me, cause i have high expectations on things so little things make me irritate when i dun understand how can a person be like that. All these high expectation genes is from my brother, cause he has high expectations on me also. He just asked me why isnt my mum back .. Such a possesive son ! We three are always possesive towards each other .. hehe..

Tml would be libary day again .. i read this book damm fast la .. finishin soon le ..

Being happy is the most important thing . Learn to treat urself better ! When u r happy , everything will be smooth .

( i think i am one person that treat myself quite well)