Phew .. the end of a busy day at wrk . Have been trying to prove my capabilities . Everyday gg to work is chionging fight against time.

Happy go lucky days have were the past. Where I was sheltered. Guess I did realli grow in these 3 yrs. Last time small hiccups at wrk onli I will seek for my pillar to sayang n listen.  Now .. I try to solve my own issues or get over it over a gls of beer .. lol

More changes in work is gonna come!!

Re starting my blog like again .. haha ... hopefully this time it last .

these two mths seems like a rollercoaster . Time jus past so fast.. n some stuffs jus changed so suddenly. Came to realise that my only main duty now is looking after n being there for my family.

As for work wise.. more duties n responsibilities coming in. 2013 i would say is the yr that I realli try my best to prove myself at work and truly hope that everything will be paid off next yr. Its not easy when almost every one ard u dont see ur point of staying on. Maybe it's because I m too comfy . But more of I want to prove to others before I move on.

Reading thru my blog .. lots of words I said before suddenly I dun have the courage or enegry to live up to it. Its not easy accepting the distance n changes . But well .. I believe god has its reasons for everything. 

Oh .. added to my family n frens .. a new member .. my adorable godson !! So cute n handsome ..

This Yr I m saying NO to visiting during cny . Every year need to put on my mask n go visiting , is such a chore. No as if they deserve my respect.

No way am I gonna forget how he treated my mum. Just wish him good luck with all his stuck up money .

I realli don uds why mummy need to bare all these insults from all these bastards . They shld be the one that is suffering. Well I will just take it that god has his way , maybe it's to make us protect her more since she is more vulnerable.


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It's been such a long time. Shall make it alive in 2013 . 2012 ended nicely .

Christmas was filled with foodie n presents . This yr presents were so great . Love them all!! Had a cold white Christmas in Beijing . It was a enjoyable trip . Mummy enjoyed herself in coldness. And I had my first snow experience !!

Count down at the airport this yr .. n awesome view of fireworks on the plane






My hiao mummy .





Snow !!!


Jelly hearts n wine at ofc !!



Christmas brunch @ flutes




Shark fins to start the new yr !

2013 .. There is so much that I nd to improve this yr . Courage is the word I nd ..

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broke my record of drinkin alone !! I guess I m realli v frustrated , n I have reach a state that I feel my own rubbish I shld take it myself . What's the point of telling ur
own rubbish to others . It gives comfort .. We we all lead our own lives . I nd to learn to grow n be independent .


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sometimes I realli dun like to hear how u r frm others . Honestly it hurts my ego .. Cause last time I was the one hu noes . Just like u dun like ppl to know me more than u ...

It's the mutual feeling of importance that's kps friendships going on . Just like the rest of my close frens..

Once I was told it was mutual .but recently I dunno why u kinda make me disappointed cause some stuffs u claimed or stick by becomes invalid. I guess it's the environment .. Everyone nd to accept reality n realli have a sense of belonging . I guess that's wat cause the drift.

Well saying all these .. I will give a super duper big sigh !! N move on with life

slowly we will drift and I will have to accept the fact that things won't be like they were before.

Maybe friendships is like contracts , depends on whether u can see a future before u decide to renew ur contract.

seriously I m just super piss .. Super yuan Wang .. Nv do anithing then must receive such crude words ... Always take me for granted.. Ahhhh !!! Hope someone can knock some sense into u sia since we all failed .. Also dunno say u sensitive or insensitive .

Suddenly I feel so tired after comin bac frm my trip . Maybe because I made some promises to myself that after the trip I nd to
Do . N so fast time just flies like that . I just feel quite drain .. Drain that I realli nd to buck up myself . Realli lots of stuffs nd courage . For instance .. Seeing his family members giving more stress to mummy .. All I can say is ask her to ignore . But as kids , maybe we shld tell them off ? everyday mummy tell me her work is so stressful .. But there is nth much I can do . I dun have the money to clear her ofc Debts so that she can quit .. n lookin at my bro .. So dejected everyday because of his health .. Haiz ... Everyday gg home I try to look ok .. But yah actually I m worried for them ..

Last Weekend was fruitful.. Jun n Jo came over for cookin session . Menu included strawberry cheesecake , chicken chop pasta , salad n failed dou Hua ... Enjoyable time with all the laughters from us the 3 noob chefs . But mummy also liked the food . Pass Liao !! Sunday went to see bb enya .. Omg I carried a one day old bb . So light , so adorable . I wanna give birth!! Haiz !! I dun wanna be like my Mirror !! No !!!

Mummy went for her eye op . N today I cooked for her .. Yeah I can cook Liao.. Hehe ..

I cant wait to go HK with babyxin !!

Late night 1 am .. woke up from an 1 n half hr power nap. Just cant believe that suddenly i just cant go back to sleep. Maybe there is a sense of urgency in me that i need to move on with my life step le. To others , changing jobs would actually mean no kick , however to me , someone who is actually so fortunate to be protected in my yrs of life , well despite family hiccups. Its kinda a huge step, being in my current job is realli a very comfortable env , esp working with amanda , and also collegueas that i m comfortable with. Of course, trust level in work is not with everyone however they are nice ppl overall. Its realli not easy for me to push myself to move out of my comfort zone. Where i will all alone , defending myself and consoloing my ownself . actually come to think of it , even in my CIMB starting days , my collegueas do actually defend us from all the "bad ppl" . Kinda luckily for me , and also i do have my fierce rubbish bin, who tries to defend me to a certain extent, yup definately i m too spoilt.

Well, i have already starting some resumes out le , lets see what has god planned for me ba . If marketing is not fated with me , then maybe i will have plan 2 which is CS again. Dun realli noe if marketing is in my capibilities, but i will try. I realli feel that if u have no confidence , its kinda hard to find wats your capibilities. Hmm .. during this period, i realli just wanna concentrate on myself, exploring my thoughts , forcing myself to actualli be more mature and also try to handle my own EQ more.

It was a hectic Saturday .. So many things in one day .. Went for bb enda bdae party then rush home , then rush to blow hair then rush to wedding .. Some more when i sit down I realise that my dress gt a small hole .. Heng it's not obvious ah .. Reach raffles drizzling .. And I was late so everyone went off Liao .. Only jj was waitin for me ...walked to a wedding in drizzle so unglam .
Heng my eyeliner water proof ...

Hehe .. Tml is boracay !! Can't wait for the amazing beach claimed by many ..

Booked my "not cheap" holiday to boracay !!! I believe it would be an experience of relaxation .. Nv been to Philippines ... Started to plan my finance n also travel plans .. Hopefully next up will be Cambodia ? Travelling is part of me .. Somehow it just makes me more satisfied with life .. Lol .. I really like to go a round the world .. Ppl spend on branded stuffs .. To me I spend on pampering myself on a trip .. Bonus is just round the corner .. This yr .. Depressing to say that it is gonna be bad... haiz but still better than nothin ..

Last Friday RB darling brought me to eat something new again .. Yup definitely good n delicious jap food !! It was really a feast .. Long time since we went window shopping n chill out at Starbucks ..now that we r not working tgt Liao .. It actually takes effort to try n meet up n show some concern . Strongly believe that in all kinds of friendship it takes effort and also two hands to clap . If just let mths past without contacting it will reach a pt that u will be lazy to contact ..




Jap food at watami is gd !! 30 plus for a feast .

It's been such a super long time since I blog .. Hmm I think recently I m kinda in my own world .. But still not till the extend that I want it to be . At the age of 24 , it seems that there a lot of stuffs that I really nd to start to plan . However , courage is still not fully with me . And also , maturity. I believe to a large extend in my life I m protected well. Not onli by my family , but also my dear friends . Yes , it is really fortunate to have such ppl add me , however I recently have started to think otherwise . I guess it is because of such protection that makes me always choosing path that I think will make me less uncomfortable . That's why in life courage is needed , cause onli in harsh , uncomfortable , alone times then I will start to grow . N then onli I will be able to go far .

A recent talk with one fren got me kinda affected n also worried for that fren. It's really a pleasure that we might not be v close frens , but I managed to lend my listening ear . Being someone that is not v gd with words of comfort , the way or my style of showing concern to frens is to lend my listening ear n trying to show some concern . No doubt there also some things that I m tired of Listening .. Lol .. After the talk with my fren , suddenly I felt that a lot of ppl have not choice but to hide their true feelings . And that's how we can survive . It suddenly make me feel that i Shld occasionally drop a SMS to my frens to make sure that they r ok . My personal emotions can be quite well read off from my face . Low EQ ...

Putting everything aside ... Some back dated pics ..

Today is another fustration day .. Internal fustration. Sometimes I just feel so disgusted with myself . Why can't I have facial expressions whr I truly mean them ? Pls dun step on that particular toe . Cause when u step on it .. It realli means bye ..


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i think its ages since i blogged .. packed my korea bag halfway n i just feel so pek chek that firstly damm i cant fit into my jeans that i wore to Hk IN march .. haiz so depressed .. So many things changed since i last travelled. My skin , my fats , my character ( i guess so) , my travel partner .. haiz... dun noe why i just feel so pek chek and also looking at my CC bills i even more pek chek .. haiz ..i hope i spend within budget in korea if nt i also dun noe how .. No sugar daddy , no bf , no rich family.. haha ..

I m seriously just ranting away.. But on the other hand i cant wait to spend my holiday with soulmate.. Hehehe..

Nt fantastic Korean BBQ with ah wan !!




Tea jelly at TWG is gd !!



Atas tai tai tea time with Nu ren and Squid ..




Jb with ah wan on sat !



Jb ba ku teh with mummy on sun !!

That was all my outings for the previous wk . This wk kinda nua .. Cause I m kinda "fan" abt some stuffs .. Trying to be in my own world a while to think thru ... Today .. Feel sick with fever ..

It's time to rest n think thru ba . Went for skin doc ytd .. First time I see ppl do laser treatment .. Must wrap the face with plastic transparent foil . some women realli so darin jus for the face .. N when they r alrd so old lo...

Cant wait for Korea !!

Yeah ... It's wkends !!! This wk I was busy woryin abt my hair ... Haiz .. I think these few mths realli is suay bong ... everywhr gt prob ... Lookin worse ... ytd went for v nice jap food with Simone n squid ... Went to try cold stone !!! Super nice de ice cream !! Haha .. I think in ofc I click more with the lao ren .. Haha ... Today tian deng turn out kinda enjoyable ...hope all our wishes come true !!





Jap food @sun moon




Ji romantic sia ...




A collage of my beloved 5 darlins !!

Oh ... I m touched to have my darlins with me ... They nv fail to show me concern ... Although sometime we make each other blood boil. But still m grateful for them ... Love u guys !!

It's been a long time since I blogged ... Last wk was fruitful .. Went USS , Natas fair n jacky cheung concert !! The concert was great .. Realli gd vocals, but I still love sammi more !! I m
a super loyal fan. I had a great day screaming with ah wan
onthe roller coaster .. It was fun !! think maybe I shall upload the pics tml. As for Natas ... Yeah Korea is booked !! Finally !!






Went to put tian deng !!












Yeah .. Next up is swan lake with comfy rubbish bin aka 女人。

Went movie with mummy today ... Long time since I bring her go watch movie le ... hehe ... I m a gd girl today ! First time I wash toilet . It's time to be nt so spoilt . Ytd went eski bar with Cimb peeps.





Chen huixin happily sleeping on my bed !! Love n hate relationship with this soulmate




Eski bar platter ...