Truths of my heart

2011-11-14T08:08:00.001-08:00

Today is another fustration day .. Internal fustration. Sometimes I just feel so disgusted with myself . Why can't I have facial expressions whr I truly mean them ? Pls dun step on that particular toe . Cause when u step on it .. It realli means bye ..

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2011-10-10T08:35:00.000-07:00

i think its ages since i blogged .. packed my korea bag halfway n i just feel so pek chek that firstly damm i cant fit into my jeans that i wore to Hk IN march .. haiz so depressed .. So many things changed since i last travelled. My skin , my fats , my character ( i guess so) , my travel partner .. haiz... dun noe why i just feel so pek chek and also looking at my CC bills i even more pek chek .. haiz ..i hope i spend within budget in korea if nt i also dun noe how .. No sugar daddy , no bf , no rich family.. haha ..

I m seriously just ranting away.. But on the other hand i cant wait to spend my holiday with soulmate.. Hehehe..

2011-09-25T08:33:00.001-07:00

Nt fantastic Korean BBQ with ah wan !!

Tea jelly at TWG is gd !!

Atas tai tai tea time with Nu ren and Squid ..

Jb with ah wan on sat !

Jb ba ku teh with mummy on sun !!

That was all my outings for the previous wk . This wk kinda nua .. Cause I m kinda "fan" abt some stuffs .. Trying to be in my own world a while to think thru ... Today .. Feel sick with fever ..

It's time to rest n think thru ba . Went for skin doc ytd .. First time I see ppl do laser treatment .. Must wrap the face with plastic transparent foil . some women realli so darin jus for the face .. N when they r alrd so old lo...

Cant wait for Korea !!

2011-09-10T12:07:00.001-07:00

Yeah ... It's wkends !!! This wk I was busy woryin abt my hair ... Haiz .. I think these few mths realli is suay bong ... everywhr gt prob ... Lookin worse ... ytd went for v nice jap food with Simone n squid ... Went to try cold stone !!! Super nice de ice cream !! Haha .. I think in ofc I click more with the lao ren .. Haha ... Today tian deng turn out kinda enjoyable ...hope all our wishes come true !!

Jap food @sun moon

Ji romantic sia ...

A collage of my beloved 5 darlins !!

Oh ... I m touched to have my darlins with me ... They nv fail to show me concern ... Although sometime we make each other blood boil. But still m grateful for them ... Love u guys !!

2011-08-29T04:05:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since I blogged ... Last wk was fruitful .. Went USS , Natas fair n jacky cheung concert !! The concert was great .. Realli gd vocals, but I still love sammi more !! I m
a super loyal fan. I had a great day screaming with ah wan
onthe roller coaster .. It was fun !! think maybe I shall upload the pics tml. As for Natas ... Yeah Korea is booked !! Finally !!

Went to put tian deng !!

Yeah .. Next up is swan lake with comfy rubbish bin aka 女人。

2011-08-13T09:08:00.001-07:00

Went movie with mummy today ... Long time since I bring her go watch movie le ... hehe ... I m a gd girl today ! First time I wash toilet . It's time to be nt so spoilt . Ytd went eski bar with Cimb peeps.

Chen huixin happily sleeping on my bed !! Love n hate relationship with this soulmate

Eski bar platter ...

2011-08-06T08:42:00.001-07:00

Today is such a nua ing day at hm . But it's good too since I have been a hyper active girl , almost everyday go out. Sometimes I get into the goin out "kick" that I dun wanna go hm... I think I have been spending money like no body biz .. haiz .. I
Realli think I new to buy more
Office wear .. So Sian every time
Whr same clothes ...

2011-07-31T07:18:00.000-07:00

We r the 4s now .. (frm left) Snoob, Simone, Stupid n Squid

It was a forced smile by me ..

This is a sincere smile.

Today was a laughing day.. Had another round of er xin gui darlin's bdae outing. It was so much better today.. at least my mood was good n felt comfortable . The whole day was laughin at squid. Hahaha ..

2011-07-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

I m gonna have slim fingers again !!!

ah!!!! i feel so fat !!! So so fat .... everytime i wanna jian fei then give up halfway .. the hearbal life determination n habbit has gone ... i dun care this time i m so gonna jian fei .. if nt i dun have clothes to wear to go korea . n i wanna go hk and buy more clothes ... I m goin back to herbal life ON 1 Aug ... Chen huixin is gonna be my trainer , cause she so fuckin scolded me for leting myself go down n down ... i m gonna change my laptop wallpaper to determine myself .

2011-07-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Mr Curry after training .. Part 2 on 30th !!

BBQ at Queens

I m super duper broke .. luckily tml is pay day.. in the upcomin mths i will continue to be broke too lor .. tml is back to work .. ah super sian abt that. its gonna be a long wkend with class on sat morning .. Haiz ...hope the week will pass smoothly with me removin stitches tml, sat training , and sun si nu ren bdae celebration @ some steakhse ..

2011-07-23T07:42:00.001-07:00

Surprise !! Heheehe !! It's so fortunate to be my darlin...

2011-07-22T05:29:00.001-07:00

Babyxin came to visit me today!! Feel so loved , even though she always say love me lesser le. have been slpin a lot for the wk . And so fast the wk has passed. Dun wanna go back to work !! Haiz .. Stayin at hm like so out of the world .. Luckily ah da give me updates .. Heheh ...

Cant wait for holiday with Hx. But I think I will come back with bruises.

2011-07-21T04:48:00.000-07:00

stayin home .. its just drama non stop.. totally immersed myself in the drama. Haiz .. its time to start lookin at korea stuffs le .. watchin drama realli makes me wanna go jeju FNE. But dun noe whr shld i start planning. Hmm.. i cant wait for the trip with bbxin. Its time we stitch back the friendship that we built. Dun wanna anything to happen for me to lose the friendship. As much as every women needs a man who loves her . A women also need a fren that is truly loves n be by her side to hug n cry together. October .. Faster come!

2011-07-19T11:49:00.001-07:00

My pig ears ...

Tried nt to take painkillers today ... But still just took one tablet before slpin . Pain kinda comes n goes ... Super ma huan is when slpin n bathing... rough sleeper like me , can't turn sides when i slp is super xin ku ...

2011-07-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

wonder wat are we so engross abt ??

In the midst of dancing

CIMB GANG !

Group pic of all the crazy peeps !

Another tiring but fun sat .. ktv session started in the afternoon .. At first tot it would not be as enjoyable .. but the outcome was kinda gd .. we were like a bunch of crazy ppl in the ktv room , smuggled drinks n chips.. after ktv it was wine bos again ..kinda like the cosy place , just that the waitress all a little noob make me pek chek ..

2011-07-15T22:52:00.001-07:00

Havin op on Monday afternoon . Although it's nt the first time.. But I still feel scared scared ...
I wish I can bring something to hug in ... LA on the ears is super painful . n after op also will pain ... It will be a painful wk... It's like I have been lookin forward to cut the damm thing off so that I can tie hair .. Seriously can't rem when I tied hair . But hopefully I won't have too deformed ears .

2011-07-08T09:43:00.001-07:00

It's haiz x 100 times .... Just finish watching my hk lawyer drama ... N seein the drama is like a reflection ... even the episode is like reminding me lor .. The cycle has started again n it always disrupts my perfect planning .. happy gift , again gt to be apology gift .. Haiz ..I shld just shut up n be quieter like before. but character change le also can't reverse , no matter how much I want to.

it's been a long time since I touch my diary..which is a gd thing. Cos diary r for the deepest tots n super duper emotional days .

2011-07-07T09:55:00.001-07:00

had a great dating session with Annice darlin ... Just the two of us in our world ... Just like before...heart to heart talk was great too.. I m realli grateful to have Annice darlin in my life.. Haha .. It reminds me of the emo drama I m watchin .. 49 days ...

In fact I m grateful to all my Darlins. Sometimes my words may seem too " flirt" but it's truthful frm my heart .. Well, no one is perfect.. Friendship takes 2 hands to clap n also makin the extra effort to kp everything going . Times may be good n bad ... But as long as there is a "xin" for each other . Everything can be overcome. In the midst of being busy , it takes effort for meet up n showin that concern.

My life is nt just abt myself. It's also abt the ppl who played a part too.

2011-07-05T09:31:00.001-07:00

recently I realized I v long time haven seen some ppl le ... Annice tan is definitely in the list .. thinking of SIM days we lead our lives everyday together, during holidays we also still see each other everyday n lead our "Atas" living. But there is no re play button in life .

Recently mummy kp telling me that she wants to retire after settling everything . It just kinda bring fear in me that I nd to look after my mum in monetary terms , but currently now , I m still askin her to give me stuffs that I want . with my pathetic pay n ambitious travel plans . Whr on earth m I gg to get money.

Haiz ... Sometimes I wish auntie Vicki was still around to pei mummy . with her support n company we would feel better. Time flies .. it's gonna be 3 yr anniversary. Enjoying new yrs eve will always make me feel guilty.

2011-07-03T07:36:00.001-07:00

Think I m getting old .. played n got super hyper ytd till 3am .. woke up with body ache .. This shows that I have been a gd girl nt stayin out late ... Transformers was great today even though the whole day I was being cranky with ah wan... mummy fracture her big toe nw ... Fall at the door steps . Luckily nt v serious.. it's gonna be a borin week without ah da .. Missing her so much that I call wrg names ...

2011-06-27T06:51:00.001-07:00

I dirtied myself .

2011-06-08T06:23:00.001-07:00

So mentally n physically tired today ... it's always the same issue with diff characters each time ... It's v tiring when u feel that u r nt at fault n ppl just insist ... what conclusion can it get to . Ur insecure -ness is my fault ? Me treasuring ppl ard me also at fault ? tired ...

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2011-05-26T09:10:00.001-07:00

It's another tiring wk ... from Monday to thur go out ... Mon n tue five with Cimb gang .. Catch up session with Annice n DaphY ... Wed outing with the other 3j .. Tml shld be outing again ... Suddenly feel like haven a break on a wk day ... But .. I dun have enough leave ! Arh ...

2011-05-18T02:41:00.001-07:00

This wk is nt a short wk !! Have to work on sat !! Sian ! May is a mth of so many stuffs sia ... Went batam with Hx .. Celebrated her bdae, mothers day , new phone .. N also so many farewell. Suddenly ofc every day is down down n down ... It's has been a little quieter with the noisy but fun peeps gg off...haiz .. Frm nw till oct will be savin n savin for Korea !!

A great trip .. Although I keep kena molested ..

Movie outing with mama song n 死女人 .

the old noisy ones in cc .. The centre grp aunties ! Gonna miss all the fun in cc ..

2011-05-09T07:01:00.001-07:00

Frustrated ...sometimes wonder why the road is so difficult .. Why must things be so complicated ... When will it be all settled . It's a nv ending story . Things gt to restore to the default ? No way I m gonna accept such a life.

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2011-05-03T10:05:00.001-07:00

It's 1am ... Gg to slp soon ... I had a happy wkend !! Sat went concert with baby , Sunday spend the night with DaphY n ah da ... Ytd spent time with my mum n today went yum cha with Hx , followed by " me " time at hm... Life is great for the past few days ... But tml is back to the reality world .. Hopefully there would be any crisis tml.

Hmm .. Batam has been booked .. Yeah !! Family matters , my dad is back , dun Noe when will he be gone again . One thing is that a leopard will nv chg it's spots .. Some ppl won't repent even during harsh times . They only know how to blame ppl .

Sometimes I realli wish I had another shoulder to rely on n depend on. Givin me the security that I nd ... Well, some stuffs are
Just fated n alrd prepared for in our life. We r just following god's way.

2011-04-09T11:17:00.001-07:00

Recently my life have been filled with food , beer n 特务J farewell gift ... Oh n also planning for
Some holidays ... Hehe ... Jacq is influcing me n tempting me to go Perth, Penang n hk again... Hahah ... My god ... But upcoming will be malacca n Korea ba... Not sure if I can squeeze anymore places in between ...

I like the food at blue mountain cafe !! I n wan filled our stomach first before we went to get "last stock in sg " gift ...

Part of farewell gift n super er xin n long thank u card .

Beers at one altitude ... happy hour with win, Hazel , da n angie ...

I can't wait for my concerts !!

I wanna eat this two stuffs so
Badly that I dreamt of it ytd ... My god ...

2011-04-09T09:07:00.001-07:00

Oh my ... Addicted to secret garden . Long time since I chase a love drama. Gt LOVE feel ... hahaha ...

2011-04-08T07:37:00.001-07:00

"That's all I can do n will do le . If it did not make a difference . I have nth to say. "

After bonus I have been enjoyin life . Which is nt v good , nt healthy to my body n wallet. I realise , I can't be too rich , I will just immerse in pampering my self ...

2011-04-04T08:07:00.000-07:00

human relations are sometimes so scary.. confusion and guessing makes stuffs even more complicated. Maybe i take this too hardly, maybe i m too direct abt my feelings to the ppl i tot whom shld noe my true feelings. Maybe letting ppl noe ur actual feelins make things worse, thats why most ppl choose nt to reveal their actual self to avoid the unecessary trouble. Always tot that because i care n show concern for the ppl whom also showed concern for me, then i shld be truthful to tell them how i feel abt them or their words. But maybe sometimes because of the lack of understanding in each other, cause the misunderstanding. Or is it because of the expectations that cause the misunderstanding.

I m even confused to real reason why i reacted so strongly. Well, did i realli vent my anger because i was havin a bad wk or was i hurt because of the words on wat kind of person i m came out from someone i tot who will have at least basic understanding of my character. Hopefully after ventin out on this channel i will not ponder over it anymore (which i think its impossible)

2011-03-29T06:50:00.001-07:00

Pork chop bun !! Nice but super sinful...

Super act cool sia ... Leather jacket rocks in hk !!

Happy kid !! Love my golden mickey hairband !!

Dou hua ... With bird nest ... Shiok !!

2011-03-26T19:10:00.001-07:00

It's been ages since I blog ... since I m waiting for bus ... Shall upload the hk pics on iPhone ... I miss holiday ... Wanna go on holiday soon again !!

Ang moh breakfast at Macau

Super big wan tan ... all gone by the 2 of us !!

Drinking at LAN Kwai fong !!

Our dinner near hotel !! Super yummy tomato beef

our heavy dinner after disney ... Went to eat desert from " brother " shop ... Haha ....

Shop like MADD !!!

2011-02-13T05:35:00.000-08:00

the emo girl is slept a lot today .. sleeping makes me feel better... but things wont disappear ba .. dnd is over !! yeah !! so happy that we won back our rental fee hehe .. quite enjoyable night.. n i drank 4 glasses of wine .. eat mac n niam in a slightly tipsy feeling...but my alcohol kick is back.. oh my dangerous.. think next round will be on sat !! Or Timbre !! Next two highlight would be holidays , and bonus .. but after bonus it would be time to think abt my working life again ba.. i just cant wait to go macau for egg tarts and hk for milk tea and shopping again...

without bonus i cant buy a new cam for hk !! . sad ...

2011-01-01T23:20:00.001-08:00

I dreamt that everything was back to normal ... it was a gd dream ... Hope it will come true tml... Another dream was that I was lookin for a new job for a new start ... Hahaha wat a joke ? How will my 2011 be ? I m excited to know, yet a little afraid of the challenges ahead ...

2010-12-30T22:18:00.001-08:00

The feelin of being angry at someone is tiring , but the feelin of someone being angry at u is worse . A person with such high pride in me hates being ignored . Hates when I am talkin to a wall n hates not talkin things out.

I just hope everything will end on the start of next yr .

2010-12-30T00:34:00.001-08:00

Hate the feelin of uncertainties ... sometimes I wonder , why do
I care when ppl dun give a damm...

2010-12-28T08:53:00.000-08:00

Haiz ... sometimes i feel so tiring communicating with ppl and yet that is my job. With my fussy-ness and also strong pride, sometimes i feel so tired.. And sometimes after there is more tiring stuffs for me to deal with. Self - restrained is something that i learnt this christmas in church. But which human can realli fufill that, each of us are feel that we r the one that is more ke lian.

Just being emo today... cause i m tired .. realli tired.. tired of the fact that why cant ppl be more understanding n consider my feelings.. Yet this is a thought of self centered-ness

2010-12-11T00:12:00.001-08:00

Still feelin fan n worried .... Wakin up not feelin excited on the day ahead ... But just wantin the day to be smooth n problems solved ... When will l feel that life is a interesting mix of joy n sorrow ?

2010-12-09T19:11:00.001-08:00

Waitin for doc at nuh ... Hungry cause it's 11, lunch time .... Bored ...

Pics from Evan farewell.... Still waiting for doc ..... gt to
Endure pain again later .... Haiz ....

2010-12-03T20:12:00.000-08:00

It has been an "rollercoaster" week for me again. But more "rollercoaster " rides to come. Sometimes i realli feel that i am so suay ... Although we know that there are countless ppl around the world or around us that are worse, its still hard to avoid indulging in self pity at times.

However, when i self pity , i feel that i have greatly sin . Seeing the verdict now , and also looking back at our lives, i realli feel that god has every thing planned for us. It depends on us to appreciate his planning. Sometimes i realli miss the old me, but on the other hand the old me was strong but unhappy. Now at least i learn to be appreciative of the ppl ard me, even though they did not realli do things that are super super touchin or so , but just a little concern alrd i am appreciative of that. Hahaha .. Thats why the number of darlins i have has increased yr by yr ! Until chen huixin has alrd give up ! hahaha..

To all my darlins, thanks for all the concerns .. Although u all might not feel that u all do a lot or realli help or consoled me , but i realli appreciate every word of concern.

Days ahead will be hard, even harder than before. But i believe everything will come to an end soon.

PS : Ah da mei, u see me every day, so pls bear with my off n on emo-ing.. Thank u ah da !

2010-11-28T21:16:00.001-08:00

jb trip pics ... It's was a fun day , with me being a little cranky ... haha... But my two darlins still tolerated me ... Hehehe ... it's time they show me some love ... My silly mum joined us later ... Everyone says my mum is cute ... Cute = silly ....

2010-11-24T03:28:00.000-08:00

Oh my goodness .. i am bloggin the office and i tot its my CRMS case system . I started with " JA" haha my initials. I am feelin super hungry now .. half n hr more to off work. I cant wait to eat.. seriously i wonder how am i gonna start back goin on a diet. So pissed that i the concert video is actualli not uploaded la. I happily tot it was. It was a satisfied video taken.. Nvm .. i have edited the taiwan pics, taken away the " buang ones" but then facebk still takes a long time to upload. So sianz...

Haiz.. i cant wait for fri ! Timbre ! Its been realli a long time since we had quek quek pizza. N sunday i can see chen hui xin . nv see her for half a mth le. yeah! i miss ban mian times... I can wait for the year to end... haha.. time pls fly.

2010-11-19T03:06:00.000-08:00

Did not realli take a lot of pics at sammi concert.. i took enough at hk one le .. haha .. Went concert with Jun Jun n Jacq .. It was fun .. At least the three of us were quite enthu, but i n jacq had to tolerate the non-sammi fan keep niam-ing.. But the three of us nv take photo la.. and i took a super shaky shot of them haha .. but i am nt selfish so i shall upload it here.. hahah ..

2010-11-18T18:45:00.001-08:00

I miss all my darlins ...... I also miss my hk airport fried rice n Taiwan ru rou fan , oyster egg n red tea ! haiz .... I can't wait for march now ! I will be back for my fav lemon tea ! Macau egg tarts wait for me !!!

2010-10-08T21:23:00.001-07:00

it's 4 more wks to Taiwan ! Life is such a routine that I am just leadin it everyday... With no idea how would the future be ... Seriously felt that durin sch days all the thoughts that with a cert, I can see my future, we just so innocent . Act no one can see their future ... Haha.. It's how u crave ur our future n not just imaginin it. Bein in the same company as ah da , both of us are pillars of each other in work... Which is comforting ... Thoughts of disappearing in our own world also happen the same time. Haha.. And after so much crap ... My main plans now is still save n for the travelling plans...

2010-10-05T04:09:00.001-07:00

31 days more !!! Yahoo !!! Two things I will never be sick of ... Sammi concert n hk !!!

2010-10-04T05:12:00.001-07:00

Whenever mummy tells me abt the prob with all the stuffs she has , I always feel so helpless. Esp with money matters ... the lawyer figures r kinda scary .. And yes , we have to be in debt again till every thing is settled. For the years is clearing debts after debts... When will it finally come to an end , when she finally cleared almost all , Now a debt incurred just because we wanna a more peaceful life.. I can feel the tiredness she has, yet nothing helpful I can do .

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2010-10-02T11:07:00.001-07:00

At ur lowest n most down period.. Who are those who will realli feel for u ? as u r feelin down, they will be down too....

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2010-10-01T06:46:00.001-07:00

Bored ... Shall upload some Lameo pics in my phone ...

I love ban mian catch up time with Hx !!

Free chatterbox chick rice we had for tea time .... Hmmm ... We felt it was overly rated!

our childish yet lovely gift for 老女人！

That's all for the lameo pics .. My ear hurts , feelin cranky.. I think I too long never have injection le , until I jerk a little while the needles went in n the doc said sorry.... always feel moody whenever I go hospital and after that ...

I can't wait for sammi concert, taiwan , Macau n hk !!!

2010-09-26T03:59:00.001-07:00

Nua -ing at my grandma house Now.. woke up at 3pm today ... And the first thing I heard from my mum is that he told some relatives n family friends that we r sellin the house... He is just so confident that with all his crap he can win the case . Seriously just can't wait to get him out of the hse ... Haiz ... Luckily I have friends around me as support ... thanks darlins. Every time I am down , I will look at the pics in my phone to see the ppl i have ard me . Thanks darlins .

2010-09-19T03:54:00.001-07:00

Doin my hair now ... So bored ... iPhone is always like my bf durin my my boredom times ... Haha ... Ytd had a relaxin time @ jb ... But again ... Spend till I was left with 1 dollars left.. Last week
Was quite a mentally tirin week, seein the true Colour of my dad realli make me so disappointed that it's all hate now ... There is no single reason that we should pity him. seein his actions makin my mum so disappointed also just make me worried..

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2010-09-15T03:36:00.001-07:00

So excited with the upcoming stuffs ... Yet the thought of scrimping n Saving all the way is horrible and waitin for the day to come . Even today window shopping alone is horrible . Can see cannot buy . haiz .... The rate of all the travel plans I have I think I will have no savings ... But anyway .. It's my first job ! I
shall save part of the big B... Excited !!!

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Location:Paterson Rd,Singapore,Singapore

2010-09-11T07:24:00.001-07:00

Celebrated mummy's bdae at keppel bay today .. Bro treated us to a nice but super ex dinner ... Realli feels good to hang out n have dinner as a family ... It just shows how much we love each other.. hope everything will settle asap .. Then we can beautify our hall .. N I rest on my L shape sofa n watch movie with my home theatre ...

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2010-08-30T08:05:00.001-07:00

Freakin sick n tired of all the "shit" . Why shld I be always so bothered , why am I always the one to carry all the stupid emotions that u all give me ? I seriously feel that for the 22 yrs of my life I have been too soft, every thing I protect, I handle , I listen , I accompany . The baggage is getting heavier n heavier ... I am freakin sick n tired ... Sick n tired yet I have to just continue walkin .. There is no time for me to even escape anymore.

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2010-08-26T01:11:00.001-07:00

52 more mins to off work !! N I can't wait for it . I can't wait to see my baby. My baby loves me
The most , understands me the most n can tolerate me the most ..

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2010-08-24T06:27:00.001-07:00

Came home straight from work cause I am feelin emo. I think too many factors that me emo until I
also dun Noe why I emo. Watched drama n cry. but feelin I never cry enough. And freaking hell when I am emo , he call n ask me for money. I seriously dun understand whr his money goes . Why do ppl always only see their own shadow?

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2010-08-16T05:54:00.001-07:00

Cranky day today cause I am sick... feel like a baby, even see doc alone also feel so bored.. Haha.. But I feel the love from baby .. So sweet.. Had a great heart to heart talk with her ytd.. Realli miss the times we spend together, havin gone thru so much together I am nt afraid of that 3rd party!! Haha ... She can jolly well wait. I and babyxin has reach the stage of unconditional friendship n love le ok !!!

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2010-08-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since i have been so emo ... Emo till the extend that i decided to vent it off the treadmill. When i came home n saw the skirts that he bought for me i seriously felt so confused. I have no idea what is his motive. The thought that came to my mind was that it is all too late. I seriously dun understand his defination of loving his children, sometimes love sometimes dun love ? After the court stuffs has started , the times of coming back home n receiving shit from him has reduced but that does not mean a change in him. I can predict the real " shit" will come by end of the month after there is a verdict. Honestly, i am kinda worried of the emotional tunnel that we all have to go through from there on. It is definately not going to be easy for all of us. And by that time i would have to deal with my emotions and going to work. All these just push me to be more stronger, standing on my own feet dealing with everything. Hmm .. seriously have the urge to travel alone , wonder when can i do that !!

2010-07-26T08:08:00.001-07:00

Haiz.. Work has changed me without me realizing till i met baby. I guess is nt the work but the routine lifestyle. Every day is just fufilin that day.. Honestly I am bored le .. Nt much sparks .. It's realli a routine!! Even clubbing don realli add much sparks in fact I prefer times whr I spend with my darlins n baby chillin out. Baby said that she miss my life theories. I guess I will onli start thinking of my life after I finish probation or when I am feelin no longer sleepy haha.

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Independence day 1

2010-07-19T03:32:00.001-07:00

Today is independence day for me , da and baby . Sally go back le , so poor baby feels kinda lost , she have to be independent ironin her clothes n cookin her own Maggie le . Haha ... Independence will just make u stronger baby. I have faith in u , it's training for ur housewife job. Haha. As for me n da , shifu go holiday le .. Honestly did not expect that there will be such a diff haha . but I n da did nt open our mouth the whole mornin ... We were singing the lonely song in our hearts . Haha . Luckily there is Reuters if nt we will rot . I am here now la ing kopi alone at old town waitin for my mum... Wanted to bus home alone , but just have the urge to slack alone . Finally some peaceful short me time!!!

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2010-07-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

We are the four crappiest girls !!!

I wanted to put the caption of shifu naggin at me again .. But i realise , she has a act cute expression AGAIN.. Spoiler sia!!!
We get touchy at times !!! Da loves those moments
I guess my hands were there cause i was just too afraid of her abusive nature.....

Mr Prata is so flexible .. Okie ..
I can't stop laughin at Amanda's " whats happening " expression

Wow .. Pretty babes ...
I dun realli like this pic cause my boobs look enlarged !!!

Pillow fight !!! But its a wrong expression on me .. Haiz.. Round 2 next time !!!

2010-07-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

Stupid lei the red light .. I am nt Zhong Wu Yen !!

Ah yo .. Shifu always like to Act Act Only .. ( Act Shy n Act Cute )

Shu wen is always feelin tired @ work !!!

My abusive shifu .. Her weapon is my cushion that she's holding.. And her mighty hands !! Poor Me !!
Wow !!! Engrossed!!!

Everyone loves Mr Prata !!!
The 3 kids !!!

I love u da !!!
Hazel n her shifu ... Her shifu is not abusive at all !!!

Okie .. finally i have done my duty of uploadin the pics le .. When shuwen has uploaded her pics n videos i shall transfer them here.. Her pics are more funny!!! Its gonna be 12am n i am feeling tired again.. I guess my body clock is fixed nowadays.. Weekends passed so fast !! Monday is back to blues again.. Haha.. Shifu is away for 3wks so my skin will have some rest .. But i and da have to kick of the habit of calling "Jun Jun 电话 ! "

Time for me to mask n slp !!!

2010-07-16T04:05:00.001-07:00

Last weekend had great fun at malacca with the lovin couple n DaphY. Ytd ktv session with the bunch of cc shifu's was fun . Pics will be uploaded
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Work

2010-07-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

2010-05-24T14:16:00.000-07:00

Its 5.20 am , i seriously don't know why am I bloggin at such a time . Just that its been a long time since i have blog. Don't know why i am so calm when some things is evolving in my life.. I am not realli worried about finding a job , just wanna take my time. If CIMB dun hire me then i shall wait a few days more wait till results are out then make plans ba. Had a bad dream ytd that i fail GM .. I think i won't be calm if this realli happens.

These few days I have been a part time lawyer , helping my mum prepare the stuffs for her case. Gain a lot of legal knowledge. Yup , my bro went to sydney for work , so cool sia. And heard that the job is super easy , just flim a conference and press the presentation slides. Some companies are just too rich. Mummy and I will be going to malacca. Mummy like to have getaways nowdays, cause she feels stress. Hopefully every thing will end faster.

I don't understand why do people always think of themselves only,is this realli a dog bite dog world, where you rather people be in pain than you. Why can't people be more self scarificing a little. Have more compassion to others who are abandoned. Can you realli accept a person who has no compassion for others ? A selfish person can never be a true friend or a true lover. Only a self scarificing person knows what is love, or has the right to love.

Sixsome turned foursome trip !!!!

2010-05-11T11:20:00.000-07:00

I was all in " protected position " ..
While lin was worried abt her smile , sted and i were more worried about our lives !!
Dinner @ mushroom farm .. ( Missing the food man !)

Just got back from the genting trip .. Dun noe why when i am in singapore i am still so awake at 2am , at genting i am alrdy anticipating my lala land.. Genting trip was fun , had great fun at theme park sitting all the exciting rides !! And i overcame all my fear and took all the scary rides including the Space tower !! It was so shiok , the feeling of flying in the air .. Rollercoaster was super scary , amanda was laughin at my constipated face when i was on it , and lin was laughing at my screamin , cause i screamed , paused , screamed again ... Hahah.. Super funny la ,,, its like scary , nt scary .. ah scary again !

Overall, our turned "foursome" trip was enjoyable , i did lots of silly things including locking the hotel room door until we cant open and gt to enter by da's room ... and blowing hair without pluggin in the plug ..

2010-04-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

Isn't so "amazing" how feelings , character , and love can change.
The strong feelings once had can be so awkward now.
The familar voice and face can be such a stranger now.
Feelings and human are so fragile ? Or are we just superfical ?

If a person u once cared can be stranger now , what makes u think that the person u are caring now wont be a stranger in the future? To be contented with everyday u spend with the person ? Then why is the need for promises ? Promises will just hurt in future...

Pessimistic and optimistic is just a line apart. Utimately its just a choice. A choice that i dun wish to change for the time being.

2010-04-08T11:51:00.000-07:00

Calamari and Duck Pizza !!!

I am bloggin nw cause i have super super cravings for DUCK PIZZA ! And my cravings has to be curb with a cup of coffee. But i found out that Timbre has delivery ! Hahaha.. But its super duper ex! I think to jurong it would be 12bucks delievery charge. So if its for party purpose it would be definately worth it !! Mavbe we can order it on friday at da's place ?

Ok, back on some personal stuffs ... 2 days back was the house settlement hearing.. I did not accompany my mum cause i did nt slp the night doin project. But in the end it was a wasted trip cause my dad adjourn the whole thing cause he is finding a legal aid lawyer. Yup , which means he wanna get his "expected share" from the house. I really feel that the lawyer who help him fight is so damm stupid. My mum has a record of every single cent she spend on the house, and also how much he spend. What he spend is like only 1% compared to hers ? Based on 1% he feel that he can get 50% profit. Anyway , my mum's lawyer said that we shall just give him what he contributed.

He is really getting on my nerves .. How i wish i can return all my blood to him !!

The last Nite @ Old Dblo.

2010-03-28T11:46:00.000-07:00

Annice is so dead !! She look so happy huggin stewart..

Annice was tipsy before me lor .. First time lei.. But i still lose the race..
Sted looks like one actor when he's red.. But i forgot the name!!!

The last night of dblo was fun ( before drama started) .. Yup , after that i was kinda tipsy le... and then i things just started coming out from my mouth. Haiz.. I am now know to Annice SIM mates as Jac "the drunk and disappeared one "... Totally embrassing. Luckily its the last sem..

It is the first time i look so fugly n unglam vomitin in front of a guy.. Seriously it was a total nightmare for him. But he was kind enough to take care of me.. Freakin hell its the first time i entered a handicap toliet with a guy !!! To vomit of course.. So paiseh , i dun even dare to vomit too long, scared gt ppl outside.

And of course i made lots of ppl worried cause of a "beautiful misunderstanding" ... Annice was worried until i kena scoldin , and she recruited so many ppl wanting to search every corner of Clarke Quay. But actual fact i was just behind Dblo... So sorry and thanks to everyone man..

But i realli think i was so amazing , to walk away to go find Annice. Luckily I'm nt a man, i will be super irresponsible one.. Da was said she's feelin emo today.. I nt realli feelin emo , but my heart and mind filled with some thoughts. Well, we are women , so its normal for us to get emotional when we are tipsy. Can't wait to see my two darlins on tue , need to get some lost " memory " back.

Bye Dblo.. I will never get to walk down my fav white stairs..

2010-03-20T23:21:00.000-07:00

Just one hypocritical letter, and it made u have second thoughts .. Come on , how many times have he said that he wants to change ... If he has no guts to face all his shit in life, would he have the guts to change. Come on , he dun even have the guts to face to face tell u. If he wants to change, woud he ask me to get out of the house ? So i have to continue to live with a father who will love me on day , and the next day call my mum a bitch ? If u all wanna live such a man , and believe that he has changed , then by all means. I'm 22 yrs old, i will only belive that he has change after i see his actions. and nt words.

Come on , the greatest asset of a man is his words. All women knows that, why cant u wait for the actions to show before u forgive him ? I dun understand why u wanna waste ur life like that. Scared that he will commit sucide , its nt for us to decide , its his own life. Watever, u all can choose whatever path u all want. The path i choose, is to get myself out of this . I dun wanna get hurt anymore!!! Parents always think that they choose the best for us, sometimes its just that they are selfish and dun wanna admit.

2010-03-15T04:23:00.000-07:00

Four days of IT fair ... 12 hrs of sleep in a total of 4 days.. Totally shagged... 10am to 2am workings hrs... I and annice can be wonder women.

Worked for Starhub as cashier this time , and it was totally crazy, i dun understand why do ppl wanna spend 3 hrs waiting to buy a phone. So stupid right. But i was an experience for me.. Seeing customers shouting at the staff. Coming to tell me that they have waited an hr, come on, some ppl waited 3hrs!

Knowing the process , its kinda amazing that a majority of them working there are so friendly. Although i slept like a little pig today , i still feel tired.. and now that i have to do project , it made me even more tired.. Haiz... I need some "ME" time again..

Back to projects again !!!!

2010-03-08T23:03:00.001-08:00

I'm just sick and tired... I wanna disappear again !

2010-03-03T08:23:00.001-08:00

Today was another adventure with Annice Tan.. As usual the two sua ku's had an eye opener experience. We went to CASINO .. Yup, u all must be wondering its impossible for Jacintha to spend 100 bucks to go in and do things that is " waste of time and life" to her... haha... Well, of course not .. SOMEONE brought us in. Haha.. Our sugar KOR KOR ... We spend 6hrs in the casino!!! And we did not win a single cent, but we did not lose a single cent too .. Haha cause we never bet!!! Yup, we only did gamblers , luck, aunties and dealers analysis. Unfortunately .. our fren lost 5k.

The amount of money ppl lose in ten mins , can be the monthly salary of half of Singapore population. Yup , its scary. One plastic is worth 500 bucks .. Within 2 mins , its gone. Gambling is 10 lose, 1 win , odds. So its hard for me to understand are ppl thinking. Seeing the amt of aunties puting their life savings on the table.. Its kinda predictable that the govt will have lots of trouble "soon" . We shall just see! Anyway, for frens who gamble, its ok to gamble a little for the fun of it. But pls dun be greedy and know when to stop. Gambling is fatal.

Boat boat

2010-02-24T09:43:00.000-08:00

i suddenly feel so sleepy , that i dun feel like doin projects. Just had boat boat dinner at my house with the clubbing peeps. Yup , this wed we very healthy, not a bit of vodka , all we had was corn soup. Annice's corn soup is so nice that even my brother finish a bowl of it. Hehe... Had lots of laughter.

Tml is first court hearing.. It super early.. 9.30am lei.. But i need to be bodyguard tml, since my bro is workin and mummy say he dun wanna get too involved. I realli think i should be a man la. I am doin so many stuffs like a man. Annice and Da just sms me that their eyes closing. So qiao.. Sleepyheads!!!!

2010-02-21T07:05:00.000-08:00

dreams make u confused with reality.
Sometimes u just wanna continue dreaming ,
sometimes you wanna faster wake up.
Sometimes u hope ur dreams become reality.
But dreams indeed play a huge part in one's life.
Sleeping would be so boring without dreams.

My dream's director,
Thank u for giving me wonderful dreams.
Sometimes u tell me what my heart and mind dont.

2nd birthday celebration !!!

2010-02-15T10:14:00.000-08:00

This is the most healthy pasta that i can choose in essential brew, cause its stir fry with olive oil , and they use very little oil ..

Daph was too hungry , pls pardon her !!!

uploaded my 2nd birthday celebration !! ( all pics copyright frm da blog) I feel so fortunate to have 3 sweet celebrations this year. One at modestos , one with hui xin , and one at essential brew. I had a super big hello kitty balloon and a teddy bear. Thanks da, for realli goin to buy a bear for me. I named it Xiao Jian Jr. Next year buy bigger one k !! Hhaha..

And guess what ? For all three celebrations , i ate pasta.. So freaking fat this month , plus all the cny food. Two steamboats and cantonese vegetarian ( The HAM family dish ) in just 3 days . Steamboat at home with mummy was fun! This year , not a single hong bao , i kinda forgot the very lively cny celebrations we used to had. And the super big hong baos we had last time , still remember i bought my first playstation with hong bao money. Haiz.. but i guess the market has dropped for you guess too right. Never mind la, as long as u are still the one receiving can le. Hehe... Ok back to projects !

2010-02-09T13:15:00.000-08:00

Song : 我以为
By : 品冠

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为
你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力

填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

A freaking sad song ..Listen also can make the heart hurt so much ... (Mtv is at my tool bar! )

2010-02-08T10:52:00.000-08:00

Just some pics that i gt from da's blog .. I hate this week cause its WIL , a stupid subject,talking abt cover letters , resumes and interview . I have been doin this from NYP till SIM .. A formal interview on thur , never even give us mental preparation time, and its 20% weightage

This year i can't take ang pow again.. Its the 2nd consec year. My grandfather's first wife died .. Which is my step po po. So all the HAM family can't celebrate , i can cause its my mum side.. But still its a form of respect , u should respect the dead nt the living .. ( Thats what my mum said , sounds weird.. but its true) Anyway , CNY to me , is nothing much except for pineapple tarts. My bro just came back from bkk , and hearing that i'm goin bkk too .. He gave me 2500thb . Its hundred plus sing dollar !!! Which means my shoppin money , i need to save lesser. Just went to see the air ticks , its still the same after they raise the price. Since its alrd ex, book later or earlier nt much diff also la. Haiz.. i must make this trip possible. After this trip , then exams then start lookin for FULL TIME JOB !!! Its so scary ... I know i sound like a loser , but i realli dun want a job where my relatives feel its no prospects. Getting a good job realli matters to me. I hope i can work hard , and save up to open small fnb biz.

i regret nt making some business minded frens , then it would be benefical for me. The only biz minded fren i have is chen huixin , but she's poor. And i dun think we can do biz together anymore, she will come up with "break -up" stun to force me to make a choice. hahaha...

2010-02-04T22:44:00.000-08:00

This birthday is full of food ! But i love it ! Whats more satisfying than eatin gd food !!!

baby is so zi lian with her perm-ed hair ... Yucks!

My red eggs !!!

Black ink squid pasta .... It can only be ate at home la .. The mouth is totally gross!

Its my fave breadtalk cake ! So nice .... And annice had fun playin with the cream we didn't eat..

Thin Crust ! Shiok !

This is a much have starter ! Mushroom soup !

We were so hungry that we ate two basket of clothes !

My 22nd was spend with the ppl i love . Very peaceful and heart- warming celebration on bade eve and actual day. Thanks da, ann and char for the dinner at modesto , and the pressie , and lin and da for their handmade stuffs. And wan for sendin sms to da , to take care of me in club.

It all really touched me. Actual day was specially reserved for babyxin , cause last yr never celebrate alone with her. Thanks darlin for your red eggs, first time someone make red eggs for me .. My mum also dun do that lor ... Thanks for every thing that u have done for me , i now its realli a lot , will always bear in mind ur love for me, although u always eat soft rice.. Sorry for bein mean on ur "frame" . I was jus jokin k , dun become pua chu teng again just for me. Also , thanks sisterhood members for the sms and facebook wishes..

This birthday is full of food ... But i love it ! Whats more happy than eatin good food.

2010-01-31T09:10:00.000-08:00

i and ah wan had a walkin trip on thur .. went chinatown for dim sum and enquire on our bkk trip at travel agencies .. It was really a day of walkin.. but i was cranky that day and ah wan wanted to slap me i think .. haha .. Just like how i wanna slap her sometimes too ... Hahaha .. It was my revenge time. Ytd brought mummy to JB for seafood and buy horror dvds.. ( watchin one now ) OK .. I am so engross watching that i paused bloggin for 20 min .. Some pics next up ...

2010-01-29T11:38:00.000-08:00

just watched MY EX with mummy.. Its a nice horror movie , the first horror show that i teared a little cause its so sad. I have been crying almost everyday for two weeks because of drama. Previous week i chiong hai pai tian xin , then this week autumn concerto . Everynight i cry like shit alone. Release a lot of stress sia , even though i'm nt so stress. But it has on my tear tap le , addicted to crying since young.. I'm so lazy to upload pics .. Sorry babes , previous week clubbin pics still with me . I will upload by this weekend k k .

I hope i and ah wan strike 4d tml , then its bye bkk and hi taiwan ... yeah !!!

2010-01-18T03:18:00.000-08:00

came home real early from sch today and slept throughout.. Great satisfaction. Sleeping and stayin home makes me lose weight. I am gonna indulge in these two things for a month to hit my target of 5kg more. I'm not sure if its my imagination or what , but always feel that when its AV month ( aunty visit) i can sleep like i'm in a coma. Losin blood realli makes me tired? Maybe its the stress recently ba.

I have fallen in love in reading since i worked at mini cooper, the best boring job ever. Reading autobiography is very meaningful , it realli makes me stop and reflect at myself. Just got sammi's bk ytd , which she wrote abt her depression and how she overcame it. Meaningful book with lots of lessons on our common religion. Which i realli think that i need to start goin church almost every sun, its time for me prepare for confirmation , maybe 3years down ?

The things that happen in my life recently has made me feel that, i guess the job that god gave me is to be by my mum's side, just like how he gave my dad, a wife who is so tolerant. The actions of my father recently , just makes me wanna tell him that its all too late, we have to take responsibility of our actions , and not take advantage of god's love for us.

Its indeed sad to see him fearing, fearing that he will have no one to rely on. No one to spoon feed him with everything , giving him a home that he never appreciates. On the other hand, its also very heart breaking to see how sad my mum is. No wife would want a divorce, its realli hard to admit that fact, to admit that u are unable to walk down the journey of life with the love of your life. But those it boils down to just one fact ? Love is never eternal? Telling urself the man in front u will be there no matter sickness or poverty , making a vow to love each other forever , does it results in more hurt when things and ppl change ?

On a personal view, i feel that it takes two hands to clap. How strong is the love , depends on the two persons itself. Making the love strong requires giving up unconditionally your whole heart and life to the person and feel that unconditional love too.

2010-01-16T01:59:00.000-08:00

woke up at 5pm today , went for 2.30am movies with my mum , just to aviod my dad. Yes, he received the letter le , and said that he's not gonna do anyting abt it and give him 6 months to change .. Well , its all too late ,,, don know whats gonna happen next , but the court can grant it even if he dun wanna do anything abt it. Hmm .. its so tired to wander at orchard the whole day lor. But i like to see the quiet roads , its like world end , gt no one. ahaha..

Hmm .. i have decided to go on corn flakes and shake diet le .. Have not been disciplined enough since i'm back from hk. Only lost a kg since i'm back , although i amazingly did not gain any weight although i eat so much more.. its realli the walking in HK that helped. I am more determined now , after seeing my slow progress and amanda's grapefruit diet ( grapefruit diet is the most horrible diet on earth) i rather bath in chilli . Mummy bought two super super big box of corn flakes to motivate me. I must lose 2kg by 4th feb !!! Then it would be another 3kg before i hit my targeted weight for herbalife. Kambatei !!!!

2010-01-09T01:13:00.001-08:00

I'm super super free today .. home alone with my tv and my flu. So.. its time deep entry..

Met up with gwee , my long time primary sch fren ...
We talked about lots of stuffs over nice and cheap ramen @ orchard central ..
Being both single and kinda independent , we talked about being "single " 4ever .. haha
Well , we both come to a conclusion that we can survive the fact ... Anyway u will never know how is ur life until the last day of ur life. Who knows , we two might be happily married, while our frens happily divorced .. haha( i'm nt cursing u guys ah .. )

But, we also commented that external pressure is the most sickening thing. And i'm more lucky that her, cause my mum dun ask me to faster marry.. Come on , i'm only 22 to be ..

I guess, ppl like us can't understand why ppl start worrying about "our" love life, when we ourself feel that love life is not a defination of happiness. Definately , every normal women wants to be loved by a men whom they love too. But if there is no such person in the mean time , i cant be raising eyebrows thinking that my life is miserable , there are so many ppl that i received love from and i am fortune to have them.

I guess what i experience and see in my life has raised the standards that i look for in a guy. Of course not in terms of physical appearance but in the "internal beauty". Maybe only a guy that has met my standards of internal beauty can give me the sense of security , where i can love him dearly.

Going on to 22, and going into the working world too , it takes me in deeper thought these days.. About how am i gonna take this first step ... And receiving chirstmas greetings from my sponsered child has motivated me to earn money in order to help more orphans and childeren whom have no one to love them...

Daphy sent an "unexpected" sms today , she asked me to bring her to church .. Its realli wow, and that women as usual , sms me then when ppl reply back , she goes hibernating again. She has seriously been on hibernating mode for such a long time!

2010-01-04T09:58:00.000-08:00

these two days have been immersing myself in dramas... Watchin laid back dramas is such an enjoyment, making me feel like just going to the village to stay , find my village boy and live happily ever after. Haha.. didn't expect these kind of fairy tale life also suits me huh.. Hmm , at least i manage to enjoy a bit before sch start.. My silly mother has transformed into a sammi fanatic, keep telling me sammi is so cute , and she realli like sammi . Guess she still suffering from after concert hyper-ness. I also over that stage le lor.. Haiz.. everyday my job is to entertain my mum, cause my bro is not back yet , so i can't leave her alone too much.. Luckily i know how to act cute make her laugh. hehe.. Thinkin back, last time i was realli selfish to say that she's a burden. Nothin can be compared to wat she did for me n my bro.

So scary its the last sem. Ah yo , i just hope god will let my mother strike 200,000 so that i can open cafe la. I realli dun noe how am i gonna survive the working world. Its too "injustice" for xiaojiejie la. Ok, dun think so much le... Back to see my village love story.

HK trip

2009-12-29T22:09:00.000-08:00

My fav jian bao .. its super super shiok ..

Travelled with hx's gift .. Its very easy to recongise on baggage belt.. But i need to clean it like mad tml ...

Day 1 ------ Love Mi concert

Yeah ! Finally i have been to " hong guan " ( i feel Singapore indoor stadium is better though)

( All above pics adapted from outside source.. ) i did not know can bring pro camera , if not i will bring my bro's one lor ...

Full house for all 10 shows !!! I was lucky enough to get ticks..

Opening ....

i was so worried that my blur idol will fall down .. Luckily the only blur thing she did that night was exiting from the wrong exits ...

The high tech lights was so wonderful.

When the concert ended, we made our way down , but ppl did not want to leave ... And when i was like so near the stage .... Sammi came out ... It was so clear view of her. And the security were so wonderful to tell me to stand one side and see. She sang half part of a song , and then beg us to let her go back and sleep ... hehe.. It was a wonderful ending for me !!!

Day 2 ----- Afternooon and night tour

Me and my fav ice lemon tea. I am missin it man... Mummy wanted to buy a dozen back for me .. So crazy ...

Middle level of the peak. It was misty because of the weather. But i was freezing on the last day when it hit 10deg .... My face was ice cold !!!

Tour ----- Open top bus ...

Hk is full of ppl everywhere !!!

Ladies Market .. AAAA LV Bags !!!

My playful mother insited on taking this photo with the feet poster!

Look at the amt of ppl at the highest level of the peak..

My dream photo with my sexy idol !!! ( i look so fat with 3 layers of clothes )

Mummy's dream photo with her bf .. Leo Ku

Her wax is the most well done among all the asian stars ..

Opps ... Scary ..

His wax is the best among all..

Tour -- Night tour on star ferry

Very nice hk night view of the harbour

Day 3 -- Shoppin day

Mummy had not enough money for me to shop , so she worked as cleaner for a day.

The cleaner behind was teachin mummy how to mop floor.. But we took pics instead. hahah

My stay at L nina hotel .. This time we stayed even higher , on the 50th storey.. Cool huh.

Day 4 - At Citygate Outlets mall . -- We shopped like mad here.

Day 5 - Half day shopping and back to sg .. ( haiz .. )

Overall , the trip was very wonderful ..Good food, good shoppin and good show.

Will go back again .. But next stop will be bkk again , then taiwan !!!

Tml is the last day of 2009, nothing much to celebrate actually. Just wanna thank god for all he had gave me in 2009. 2010 will be a more challenging year...

2009-12-22T02:01:00.000-08:00

supposed to meet up with my darlin ann and da today , but all of us kinda overslept.. so meeting cancelled. Hehe .. we are forever like that.. i was the earliest to wake up although i slept at 5am .. Without even brushing teeth , i called recruit express cause they credited less 100 bucks to my acc. It was short of 2 days pay. The agent said she will check , hopefully they never lose my timesheet , cause i threw away my copy le. If not i realli dun noe how sia.. Luckily i have enough money to change.

Da, ann and ah wan , has been talking as if i am goin to emigrate to hk. Its only 5 days darlins .. Very fast i will be back with all the lao po bing's . hehe.. I will buy lots of fattenin stuffs so that u all will grow fatter with me.

These few days have been kinda peaceful , no storm. Like an angel in the house , even asking me if i want lunch. Whenever, there is no storm , my heart will start to soften, cause its like a different person, with no faults. Sometimes i hope that its a medical condition , that cause the split personality, but i still believe its actually in the person it self. I can fully understand it , cause i am also a different person after some drinks. Thats why , i never believe that drunk is an excuse, it gives u the guts, but u know what u are doing. Being truly drunk , is when u just drop and sleep. Anyway, i realli dun noe whats gonna happen next , will we be more painful or are we able to take the stress ? Only gods knows.. We shall all take a break first, before we take the uneven path of life.

Bye guys !!! See ya soon !!! ( think i will blog in hk ba, cause i can never get use to hotel beds )

2009-12-20T09:57:00.001-08:00

Ah wan and i had an "daring trip" today . We toured JB , we went to 3 shopping centres !!!! . And ended up buying only stuffs from watsons and guardians , and had a great laugh on it . And we bought stuffs we should not buy , and got our retribution cause its faulty. Haha .. We learn this lesson now... Go legal !!! Haha..

My bro left for aussie , and so sweet of him to even transfer money to my acc for my holidays. Having a bro that is working is so gd !!! But his little sister is always so broke to buy him present, but i will buy a nike shoe or jacket for him from hk!! I am so lazy to pack my bag , my aunt and mum pack theirs le.. So kiasu lor. And mummy keep thinking what shall she wear to concert. Like going for wedding dinner sia. Still must matching. Who will see sia, unless we care caught on tvb la .. Hahaha..

Its realli good that the whole family is having their "own " holiday break , before we come back and face all the facts again. I love holidays , going away without any obligations and stuffs.. just relax , eat and shop !!!

2009-12-17T11:11:00.000-08:00

its been a month since i last blogged man .. Have been busy workin for all my expenses and also my hk shopping spree trip. The main shopping motive is to visit lots of outlet shops and grab all the cheap stuffs. I hope i can buy 5 bucks t shirt again. haha .. Hopefully the we will be able to tahan the weather , its 12deg today , and as predicted it would be 10 to 8 deg on 24th . I can predict all the photos taken i will wrap like a dumpling.

Hmm.. i recently lots of stuffs happen at home , as usually my family life is always so dramatic , even more exciting than hk drama ah. Last sat spend talking to police men.. Luckily i house big to fill 5 npp cadets and 2 IO . I think singapore police force very kua zhang , i act need 2 will do lor. In case , u all are thinkin i kena beaten , no actually we reported police based on verbal abuse. Yup , its act for "good evidence" for my mum's lawyer. I can predict more drama will come after my father receive the notice. Yup .. so will update latest drama episodes when they start screening .. haha ..

These few days of drama , really make me realise that i am a strong girl now. Last time i will emotional wondering why must my life be like that . But now I can protect my mum , and i also saw how my bro protects us. But seeing him like kinda sad , realli make me very unhappy. I never ever wanted to see him feeling sad. My mum and bro are more soft and emotional , luckily there are two warriors in the house. Me and my da sao. Luckily she has been through even worse than me , thats why she can encourage us , and support the three of us.

Everything is god's preparation .. If he wants things to happen it will happen , if he doesn't he will give signs to stop it. With a string of happenings , i can say that he wants this ending ?

Pls continue to give me the strength and courage.

Mandy's big day !!!

2009-11-16T22:47:00.000-08:00

6 babes surrounding one handsome boy !!!

Crazy 3 !!!

I think i watch too much going xin ji .. Look at my fingers !!!

The groom arrives !!!!

Look how happy is the groom !!! But he was not , when we welcomed him with " surprises "

Yup ... As token of love .. we let them know why men must always wait for the women !!1

We let them have mental preparation of baby shits !!!

Blissful couple !!

The bride's mum and dad ..

Wedding dinner at shang hai tan !!! The seafood was nice !!! Although all of us were tipsy , we just sat there at peel the prawns at eat all of them !!!

After 4hrs of travelling ... Shag !!!

The mess we created !!!

The last day where mandy was Miss Lam !!!

We were welcomed with food when we arrived!!

Our room before the "Singapore Pai " invaded

12 jie mei's !!!

Singapore Pai !!! ( The kiasu , kiasi , kiabo)

Group pic.. jie mei's and all the bros .. ( Missing .. vivian , da and ah hue .. who abandoned us and went back to singapore )

Got back from Tangkat ytd .. It's kinda near Muar and malacca. Yup .. we gt a shock when we reach the bus terminal ( After an hour plus of travellin ) and realise its another two hour ride .. But what realli shock us even before we reach mandy's uncle place was the when we realised that we had to stop in the middle of the highway and walk like some illegal immigrants to reach tangkat. But finally we reached there and so many cars were waitin for us.. Like VIP sia .. We were treated very nicely by mandy's relatives and the "brothers ". First time witnessing a realli very tradditional wedding. Really a great experience.. During the weddin dinner , i think the whole group of us treated it as our wedding .. we were so enthu , even went up stage to sing for mandy .. That was realli realli funny and embrassing man.. All because of Ah hue !! And the brothers keep forcing us to drink .. i and annice were victims man .. Mandy's husband poured martel and carlsberg straight into our mouth !!! And mandy did not come to our rescue!! Well , luckily we were nt drunk , the guys were shocked at the way the "singaporean girls " drank.. Haha.. Realli enjoyed the trip with vivian , yx, ann, da and ah hue ! I want more trips !!!

2009-11-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

我們能否只愛一個人

I'm planning to sponsor one more child next year after i finish my studyin.. This time maybe shld i sponsor one that is out of Asia ? Was thinking of vietnam, cause witness the poverty there. But the kids are so innocent and contented.. But i'm a bad sponsor , i only gave my child stickers once when i have been sponoring her for a year le. while she always draw cute cute stuffs for me.. This chirstmas i shall give her something...

I can't wait till exams are over !!!!! Back to supply chains ..... Sian ...

2009-10-27T05:06:00.000-07:00

Guys just wanna be the winning party ... Their ego is always bigger than their "little bro" ..
Are women just a replacment for a guy's hand ?

2009-10-25T05:07:00.000-07:00

Tml is the start of exam .. As usual, the first paper is the subject that i hate the most. Just wanna get over and done with it.. Arhhh.. It's my second last sem .. I can't imagine that i will be a full time "worker" by july next year... What job will i get ? Kinda scary ... It's gonna be "my life" already , no wall behind to fall back.. No one to catch me when i fall, all i can do i stand up and continue the path.

Okie .. back to books !!!

2009-10-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

i dun know what guys like to act "qing sheng" nowadays.. Think we girls brain are made of coconut is it... I now there are a lot of foolish girls that fall for ur this kind of trap.. But NOT me lor .. Dun let me see u in double o again .. Yucks !!!! I feel so insulted!!! Argh!!!

2009-10-23T00:58:00.000-07:00

I looked drunk .. But i'm nt ah ...

I love this pic of lin ... It can be named " They joy of letting it all out "

The usual clubbing peeps...

Split fringe .... Both of us !!!

My "hiao" pic !!!

Yeah !!!! With my determination and hand sweat i won the battle vs one quater of hk population !!! From 9.30am to 12.45 i have been clicking the damm refresh button. Well, cause the server was down.. All internet slots taken up... But finally i got in , maybe daphy gave me luck sia... She gt my first hand joy of gettin into the login page...

So happy .. My hk trip is kinda nicely planned...

First day -- Arrive , go market eat my chee cheong fun , then concert

2nd day -- Half day tour and go take photo with angelina jolie and omg Andy Lau ( wax !)

3rd - 5th day --- Shopping , Eat , Shopping , Eat ..

Before Hk i need to continue my cornflakes diet.. 10% of fats before i reach healthy... Long way more sia ... Btw .. if u guys wanna lose weight eat corn flakes and drink herbal soup.. I went on little extreme diet during muggin period.. And i lose faster!!!

2009-10-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

One more week to the first paper , which is the subject that is so difficult and the one i hate the most. Have been takin my own sweet time the past week , although i capitivate myself at home. Ytd, my aunt say she goin on biz trip to las vegas, tokyo and US for 3 weeks . She ask me follow her , but realli too bad that its exam time... She asked me to study hard so that i can find a good job .. and suddenly i felt so guilty la ... Yup , so i'm gonna buck up this week and take over Strategic Management...

Okie !!! Ka yao !!!

2009-10-15T13:11:00.000-07:00

上帝早已預備我不相信運氣
上帝早已預備只少我不被遺棄

Living a life of this self hate, how do we begin
I wanna participate , create , and change
But there is always this wall within us
Giving Excuses ,is how we live our life everyday
Claiming to be at peace with ourself ?
When u come face to face with urself, u are truly born

JB with the peeps ..

2009-10-12T10:55:00.000-07:00

A great day being lian bang kids ... And we have to report back every month .. Yeah .. Cheap Cheap !!!

Shuwen , why is there an extra indian in the pic ?

Leong Zeee Biew with her fav hot grill chicken

Damm .. my fat arms !!! Shuwen !!!

I like this pic !! Its fat free ..

The shy miss oh with me ... Not to forget Miss leong at the money changer !! She's our Mama , only she changes money ..

2009-10-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

HK trip confirmed .. but now its really panic time cause i scared concert ticks will be sold out and the dates for additional shows, i will alrd be back in singapore. Oh my .. trying my best to ask around those with HK BEA credit card. i wish i had a hk fling la .. Ah le mak , why double o dun have hongkongers.

But i think i shall keep my fingers crossed and pray.. Since i pray that mummy will strike 4d for me to go hk , and it realli came true .. I shall depend on god once again , and also my desperate efforts. If realli can't get ticks then its really fated for me to spend 100 bucks extra for the singapore concert.

But its realli great that i can go HK to shop and eat my peanut chee cheong fun .. And then buy more herbalife when i'm back .. haha.. But this trip i must realli control , can't eat as much as the previous one. Hx says my mummy loves me a lot , yeah i seriously know that .. Actualli i did not think that she will realli bring me go. Cause we just went holiday in feb. But the only regret is that my aunt can't come with us as promised le .. I thinks its the biggest regret to me that i did not force her to go previously. She even promised she will go concert with us. But life is just to unpredictable. So we must always treasure the time we have , to fufil our dreams. U never know how long more u can live , it might be 50 years , 5 hrs , 5 days or even 5mins

Hopefully my next post will be good news..

2009-09-27T21:18:00.000-07:00

MOF chinese version @ West Coast Plaza

Rose tea ... Nice and sweet .. Just like i and xiao pang !

My fav noodle with peanut soup base.

Had a great short dinner date with my xiao pang ... We were discussin abt marriage cause another school mate is married.. Yeah , i can never ever think what they are thinkin. At 21yrs old , it realli feels that my life has just started. How to start a family when u are just a baby ?

With ppl around me gettin married , it makes me feel that i dun wanna get married. Although i'm 100% women who needs love , but i seriously think i still can live happily without a husband. Am a person that if i can't have another half who love me whole heartly , i rather do without one. It takes a greater courage to admit a hurt, than a courage to admit that u are alone. And i have already planned my "bai quan" life. Anyway , life is full of changes and the unexpected, some things can be planned too far .. Livin everyday knowing what u are gonna do tml is the way i shld lead life now.